It's really funny how you can be flying really high, totally hyper and happy and then all of a sudden an engine burns out and you smash into he ground with tears dripping from your face like blood... I guess it was just too much to think I copuld stay happy for 2 days straight... Hah! I'm so sick of my emotions... Maybe if I tore out my heart I wouldn't hurt so much. Yea I know I'm being dramatic but that's how I feel right now... I miss Josh... I miss... being shiny Hannah all the time... I miss having a reason to constantly be happy... I miss having things to look forward to... I miss not being let down everyday about things I'm excited about...

I miss Josh...