Silly me, I should have known... I felt it coming from miles away. But I hung on to the desperate hope that maybe I was worth something to someone... Oh well, on with life.

Damnit the jerk just HAD to do it the night before my first exam too! I feel so washed out right now... I need a hug.

No, he really is right. We wouldn't have been compatible in the long run... I want to travel and save the world and he... doesn't care a drop about those things. So now I'm free to be me. And maybe someday I'll be lucky enough to find a guy that is strong enough and wonderful enough to share my passion. Yea, I'll be lonely for a long time, I'll miss hugging and cuddling and feeling wanted and protected. I'll miss having someone to call and say good night to every night. I'll miss the security and intimacy of being in love. But I've got bigger things to focus on...

We've simply parted ways because our paths went in different directions. I want to think you still love me. I want to think that I really am wonderful enough to have a great guy like you. And I want to scream and yell and punch things because this simply sucks!

But I'm going to move on with life and hopefully manage to be a normal 18 year old for a while.
(Hah! I'm not sure the word normal even belongs in the same room as me...)