Sigh

I am a maelstrom of feelings today. In the very core of me, deep within me, is an intense sadness that stabs at me periodically. I cannot for the life of me pinpoint its cause and therefore cannot dispell it. On top of that I am fighting a ball of anger directed at my boss. They are "letting me go" in August when I leave for my trip to Ecuador. Two weeks of vacation cancels out three years of loyal hard work?! I feel terribly unappreciated and I wish I had enough of a backbone to tell them so. Then there is the stress about my honors project paper which makes me feel very lost and frustrated. Argh! I think I might be able to cope better if I slept but even though I close my eyes I cannot make my mind quiet itself.

At least there are a few happy thoughts to make me smile now and then. There is a chance for me yet. =) I really wish I could just ignore my paper and start in on my armor but you know me... Responsible to the point of migraine. *yuck* It will feel amazing once I do have it written though.

Huggles!