Ok so after a day of just snapping and directing all my bottled up anger at all of my closest friends, I am back to normal. Sigh, It's kind of pathetic that I have to resort to that to release all my negative energy but I don't ever do it any other way... But maybe dragging myself through the dirt now and then helps to wipe off some of the tarnish and let's me shine more brightly in the end. Oh sidenote, red axe fighting coupled with mud wrestling makes for a very fun sport!

And I love Josh so very much. I know it's difficult to be in a relationship with me but he really is splendid. I just overthink things so much and worry about the future too often... But life goes on and I need to just relax and go with it. Life is much better when you ignore the trouble spots because things tend to smooth over eventually.

Well, Huggles from the newly bright and shiny me!