What do you do when your mom yells at you for crying yourself to sleep? Apparently I was crying too loudly. I hurt... I'm sicking of loving. I'm sick of loving life. I'm sick of loving people. I'm sick of the fact that I love so much that I drain myself dry. I'm sick of the fact that I love so much that I push people away. I always seem to do something wrong. I give too little now, too much then. How do I tell someone I love them when they won't talk to me? I do I know they love me when they won't talk to me. How Do I even know I love him when we are never alone together, never talk, never do anything together...

Maybe I'm just overreacting.... I think I want to quit though... I'm tired of pain and relationships seem to be simply that, pain. It's too hard to deal with... I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick of feeling not good enough. I wish I could go back the way it was three years ago...

I feel insulted... I know he didn't mean it that way but I feel like I've just been smacked in the face and called a whore... And he didn't even have the balls to tell me himself... He complained to my sister first...

Arg! I'm going to explode... I thought I was done feeling this way. I haven't felt this way since I broke up with Kurt...

Maybe I care too much... Maybe I don't care enough...

What am I doing wrong?! Please... let me feel loved again.