*Deep breath* Ok, now that I've managed to climb out of another pit of despair, the sun is again shining.

I think maybe there are two of me, an optimistic one and a pessimistic one. The optimistic one is in control most of the time because the pessimistic one is lazy but when the optimistic one is all worn out by everyday life, the pessimistic one seizes control and tries to destroy the world! After a day or two of pessimistic Hannah crying a lot trying to ruin all that optimistic Hannah has accomplished and optimistic Hannah trying feebly to fight back, optimistic Hannah finally gains enough energy due to something inspirational like a good movie, music, or chocolate, and the world is safe again.

BTW, Under the Tuscan Sun is just such a good movie. I cried at the sad parts, I cried at the happy parts, I laughed, I wanted to hurt men, I wanted to kiss Josh... It was good.