Oh by the way, when I say I had an imaginary boyfriend... That phrase was brought on by a long retrospect upon my previous relationship. I, most of the time, felt like something was missing. This led to the fits of depression, frustration, and anger that chronicly marred my life for the past 2 years. I finally figured out what I was yearning, the full reciprocity of a real boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, I adored Josh, and he really did try... most of the time. But I'm the kind of person that hungers for attention and love. I need someone who wants to share their life with me, not just pick me up in their spare time as a novelty. Josh ended up giving me enough attention just to keep me going, but my appetite for him was constantly unsatiated. I was starving for love. I don't know if there is anyone out there that can give me the attention I desire. I just don't know if my appetite will ever be fulfilled...

I think that may be why I enjoy the company of animals so much, they are simply very giving. They want the same thing I do, love and attention. Maybe the only way I'll ever be happy is to devote my life entirely to them... That's fine by me!