I'm hurting again damnit... I thought I had healed my heart and everything was alright but all of the sudden it throbs and feels like the seams have ripped in two... I don't know how to handle this aspect of my life. Everything else is so easy, work, school, I know what my goals are and how to reach them. But what in loves name am I supposed to do about guys? Do I really want them at all? I know I don't need them, I can get along fine without them. So why am I so inexplicably drawn towards them... Because I like the attention. I just need to focus again on simply having friends. I lost sight of that somewhere along the way here again. I son't want to hurt anyone and I don't want a relationship so I simply need to live life and enjoy friends.

Friendly huggles!

Sigh... I really do need a hug...