Disconnected

I don't have the right words to describe how I currently feel... I feel disjointed, disconnected, generally befuddled. I'm wandering through a fog and the lights are playing tricks on me. Mayhaps I ought to get some sleep, but everytime I move towards my bed something distracts me. I finally got my headache to relent at least and for the moment the throbbing has subsided. But in its place is a dull, hollow ache in my chest. My cup overfloweth with tears that are slowly trickling down my heart. I yearn to feel the sun shining on my face and to hear the birds singing me the joyful secrets of life.

The definition of apathy is lack of emotion, indifference. So it was the word I was searching for last night. And strangely it fits me today as well.

Sigh