Heartache
The very core of my being is drowning in sorrow. In the past 24 hours I have been confronted with images of the worst of mankind. It pains me to think that my brethren are capable of such things. My society, my friends, my government, my species. I am astonished that people can go about their everyday life and ignore the suffering of others, ignore the small things within their power that could improve life for so many. The extreme example that sparked this introspective spiral being the tutsi/hutu conflict in Rwanda. I lay there last night watching Hotel Rwanda, comfortably wrapped in the arms of a great guy but it was all I could do to keep from shaking uncontrollably and yelling at the screen. How could you walk away? How could you turn your back? It almost makes me happy that the US stepped in in Iraq... though that situation is so multifaceted that I am loathe to bring it up.
Then I think of the constant assault on our senses from tv and media about murder, rape, kidnapping, suicide, greed, stealing, cheating, and all around disregard for fellow beings and it just insenses me beyond belief. It makes me want to drop everything in my life, run away to somewhere I could live more simply and help people in some way. It makes me want to have children and raise them right so that they can carry on decent ideals. And then again, I am terrified to bring children into this world because I would eternally be worried for their safety in this terrifying society.
All I can do is let those who are making a difference know how much they mean to me, a few can make a huge difference! I just hope that enough good can be done by the few to cancel out all the harm done by the many.
I am feeling slightly better for having spilled the tears from my overflowing heart onto this page. Thank you for reading and I hope that you can find it within yourself to do something small today to make the world a better place.
Huggles
~me!
posted by Hannah @ 2:02 PM
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3 Comments:
you wouldn't have heart ache if you just repented for your sins and joined our church.
No, I am pretty sure I would still feel the sorrow because it would not change the fact that there are people in the world doing terrible things.
But thank you for the thought and I hope that you can help change the ways of some of those who have yet to realize what needs changed about the world.
Sounds like you just woke up a little. I spend most of my day trying to find lines of EDI files that were lost of this reason or that, these lines translate in to hundreds of thousands of dollars, in in some cases mayb even millions. This money goes to the organizations like Catholic Charities (~7/22nds of all our money at work goes there) and the Salvation army. These people are trying to make a difference in Cuyahoga county right now, they are trying to get people off adictions to drugs and alcohol, they are telling them their is hope in the world and that all people need to do is ask and be open and the help will just come. But this is the real world, people don't want to be told "repent for your sins" One of the phyciatrists in Cleveland once said, "50% of my patients could get up and leave this institution and never come back if they knew they were forgiven." So I don't know who Maximus is up there but I am pretty sure that he or she is not worried about the world, they are worried about you. And that is where it starts. You can't help people you don't know if you haven't already helped those you do know and those around you, "First remove the pole from your own eye before you try to remove the speck from your neighbors." -JC. I try to do my little bit at my job, I have a fantastic job that I know what I do trickles down and helps those that are helping others. I often don't brag about it because it is my job. As for the rest of the world. Catholic Charities globlaly looses something like 20 people a day to murder assinations and bombings, these are the people that are trying to help the very people that are killing them. I am sure that Peace Corps and the Salvation army have very similar dayly numbers when combined.
If you have some spare time...
http://www.catholiccharitiesinfo.org/
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