Emptiness

It has been so long since the last time I spent a day doing absolutely nothing. Somehow the nothingness of today makes me feel ultimately like a failure. Strange how some people can enjoy weeks worth of sloth without an ounce of guilt and I feel like crap after barely a day of it. There is so much I ought to have done today. I ought to have studied. I could have sewn sashes, tabards, garb. I could have been at work or shadowing at the zoo. I could have cleaned out my closet. I could have worked on my proposal for my senior project. I could have worked out. And yet I chose to sit on my arse, nap, and snack all day. I feel like a worthless individual and yet this has become my worst habit for free time. I am simply not motivated to study. I need to find something to focus on. Especially since my career future appears rather nebulous at the moment.

I will succeed this semester. I have to.
Off to bed, I'll do better tomorrow.
Huggles
~me!