It's been awhile...

I am feeling quite... off today. I have been listless and lethargic all day. Not to mention gripping, ripping pains from the inside out and being on the verge of tears periodically. I am tired of this day and want it to end but still have much to do before I can attempt to sleep. And even once I get to that point, I know I will just toss and turn for two hours because that is how it's been for the past 3 nights.

I miss Brandon and due to technology failure will not get to talk to him tonight.
I have managed to screw up my finances royally and because my parents cannot pay me back the money I lent them, it will only get worse.
I only work four days in this pay period which not only means no money but also that Choctaw's training will probably regress.
The summer is flying by and I dont have nearly enough done!
I leave for Florida and Tennessee for my class on Friday and I am so afraid of being bitterly alone. I never fit in with my peers...
I have to memorize 88 species of herp still.
I am fat.

Ok, now I am just being silly. Deep Breath and.... I am over it. Lol. Sometimes all it takes is to write it down and to make a little light hearted fun of myself and I feel better. At least for now that is. I guess I am off to memorize some herp species and cuddle my pillow wishing it was Brandon.

Huggles!