Falling?

I will admit it, I have been avoiding posting these past few days because I simulaneously had too much and nothing at all that I wanted to write. And I have been feeling just this side of depressed. Just these past two or three days and it is nothing to worry about I hope. Not all days can have sunshine... Perhaps depressed is an incorrect word. Lonesome? Discontent? Unfulfilled? I'll put a bigger emphasis on lonesome I think. I have been insanely busy with work and schoolwork and I can not spend time trying to find someone to hang out with when I know I have assignments I could be doing... And I miss my mother too, she's out of town and I feel like I am missing a limb. Sometimes I forget how nice it is to have a best friend around all the time. My mind always feels much less burdened when I can spill to her. And I have been having thoughts about past relationships and future ones too and it hurts to think about what I am missing and that I will probably be missing it for quite some time. But that is what I have chosen and I think it is for the best. It just isn't easy when everyone around me is with someone and there are reminders everywhere I turn.

With fall sneaking up behind my back I need to make a real effort to stay motivated and positive. Less sunshine everyday and nothing but more work to do... It is a hard season for me and only leads to an even harder, longer one. Already all I want to do is curl up and sleep. I'll have to keep a close eye on myself to make sure I don't let things slip out of balance.

Breathe deep.
Seek Peace.
Sunshine and Huggles.