Just the First of Many

The first of many wee hours spent awake and wondering in the new year. 2007 promises indeed to be full of new things. I will graduate college. I will (damnit) get my lisence. I will turn 21. There is a chance of another trip to Kenya and even research in Ecuador. There are grad school decisions and real career steps. Probably a new job. And lots of terrifying decisions for me to make. The more days I spend filled with free time and aimless thoughts, the more I remember why I am a work-a-holic. I feel worthless when I am not doing something, accomplishing something, moving at least one more tiny step towards my dream. This is becoming harder and harder to do as my dream stretches wider and becomes more nebulous. The next step is shrouded in fog and I am afraid to move for fear of missing it. But in not moving am I letting that stepping stone get swept away in the river of time? *Deep Breath* And this is why I constantly bury myself in activity, because when my mind is unoccupied, these thoughts seep in and drown me.

As my siblings spent their evening cuddled with significant others, I busied myself in trying something new. I made sushi! It was quite enjoyable, delicious, and a big hit with everyone, except for Jordan of course because he will go out of his way to stomp on anyone's accomplishments. Anyway here is the finished product. I managed to snap a picture before they got gobbled up!
And also because I decided it was beautiful, here is a picture of my pie crusts for the lemon meringue that I love to make:And those, along the lovely time spent with my family, are my happy thoughts for the evening! I am in the mood for resolving nothing except for this glass of strawberry wine so perhaps I shall post resolutions tomorrow. For now, I hope the new year is everything you hoped it would be with all the love, friends, family, and happiness you crave. I can only hope I will be as lucky.

Huggles, I truly do love you all!
~me