Have you ever met someone and been simply stunned by the negativity that they exude? I cannot fathom how someone can hold so much hatred and anger inside themselves to the point that every time they open their mouth they are spewing virulent crap. I feel like it would rot the very soul out of me if I harbored that type of ugly emotion for any length of time. Don't get me wrong, I can get angry, I can rage, I can even feel hatred. But I find it very important to let go of those feelings because they do nothing productive in the long run. I sigh and resign myself to the inadequacies of the universe and the anger slowly turns to sadness. What is the sense in speaking hurtful things, especially to those you are close to? My psychology background would tell me to attribute it more to the situation then to the person themself. But it is hard because now that I have learned to internalize situational causes to defuse my anger, I sometimes forget that most do not. I realize the person in question is going through a hard time. I know I ought not to take the things she said personally. But it hurts. And it is not a one time occurence. For so long as I can remember all I have gotten in return for my friendship are out lashes and insults. Sigh. And so the pit of sadness within me grows and I distance myself from my sister. I hope she can find some inner peace soon.