Sigh. I am far too stressed out with not enough vices. I can't wait for this weekend to be over honestly. I mean, yea I'm sure the competition will be fun and everything, but I am so nervous and simply don't have time for anything else...

And nagging at the corner of those worries is the fact that finals are next week. I know I am not nearly prepared enough for them.

And I just want to cry because there is no one to run to for a hug. Sigh. I can't decide whether I really am upset about Ray and I breaking up or just about being alone. I am feeling really hurt and can't get over some of the things he said. And I know he is too stubborn to ever call me and I refuse to call him because if he doesn't care enough to call, then he doesn't deserve me. Sigh, maybe he just isn't the right kind of guy for me... but I can't help but feel like he didn't get long enough to prove it. I miss him.

Sigh.
Huggles.