Sigh. The word describes my mood of lately impeccably well. I'm finding it hard to get into the holiday spirit and the dismal state of financial affairs in my family is not boding well as far as the likelihood of my siblings being happy Christmas morn. I feel disconnected, isolated, alone. I'm steeling myself for the cold grip of dark hands pulling at my ankles... Usually it does not come so early in the winter season but it never fails that the darkened sky and frigid wind spreads to my mind and tries to suffocate me in the grip of depression. It's a good thing I can hold my breath for so long while I search for the sunlight on the surface....

Sigh.