Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Wow, did that movie hit me weirdly... It just insanely made me miss loving someone, and being loved by someone. It brought up so many memories of happy times when I was in love and I simply wanted to stab myself knowing what I was missing. I miss love. I miss feeling like there is someone who cares about me, who is mine. I miss talking to one person everyday before I go to bed. I miss kissing someone on every inch of their body. I miss having cute names that mean something special only to the two of us. I miss hugging and holding and cuddling and sleeping. I miss making up after fighting. I miss the exhilaration of giving someone you love the perfect present. I miss doing tiny little things for someone simply because you love them and want to make them happy. I miss seeing the smile I put on their face. I miss feeling my naked skin next to yours. I miss the inside jokes. I miss staying up late at night just talking about anything that crosses our minds. I miss having plans for weeks in advance. I miss spontaneous outings. I miss making you surprise picnics. I miss having someone to share the world with. I miss steaming up the windows. I miss writing you poetry. I miss the energy I feel when I think of you. I miss saying those words... I love you. I miss you looking into my eyes like you never want to look away and saying in that awestruck voice how absolutely beautiful I am. I miss rose petals. I miss looking forward to coming home from work and spending time with you. I miss pictures of us holding each other close. I miss falling asleep thinking of you and then seeing you in my dreams. I miss telling you about my dreams. I miss telling you my fantasies. I miss wearing outfits that I know you like the way I look in. I miss surprising you with new outfits that you like the way I look in. I miss smelling you on my clothes. I miss being able to still taste you after you've left. I miss your breath on my neck. I miss you smile. I miss the twinkle in your eyes. I miss... love.

And, I miss Joe...

Hugz...