A Little Format Change

I have been doing a lot of reflecting about how I can be both happier and healthier on a daily basis and I think that what I need is simply more balance. So much of my personality, my lifestyle, and my emotions are a constant up and down rollercoaster that it is no wonder that I wind up with mental and physical whiplash. So, as I feel I have not recently been writing much worthwhile material in this space, I am going to redirect my musings and see where it leads me.

So in the spirit of Balance:

My positive thought for the day:
It pleases me that people are still able to find happiness in each other these days despite living in a world of suspicion and fear. Kelsey's friend Todd is coming to visit her again tomorrow. He wasn't planning on coming again so soon but he just missed her too much. It is so sweet to see young love blossoming and though it worries me that she will probably end up with her heart broken, I know that nothing I can say can help cushion her. It is simply a trial of life that everyone has to go through to learn the essence of a healthy relationship. I remember being in her shoes, I remember people warning me against my mistakes, and I remember making those same mistakes anyways because I had to learn them for myself. And I am now a stronger and and wiser (though perhaps somewhat bitter) individual for it.

My negative thought for the day: (Strangely this is harder to do than I thought)
I am not sure that I any longer have any true friends. Or at least not the type of friends that I used to have as a child. Maybe best friend is a better term for what I am lacking because I really do have lots of friends, people that mean the world to me. But I hardly ever manage to make contact with them. I no longer have anyone that I can call on a regular basis or simply hang out with. I don't know if it is simply a part of growing up that causes schedules just not to match. Or perhaps during my relationship with Josh I became so dependent on him that I severed a lot of ties with my other good friends and neglected their attention so that now those relationships have atrophied and I simply don't know how to rejuvenate my social life. Part of me hopes that things will get better when I have a car and my liscence so that I can be more independent of my family. Part of me thinks perhaps I should find another guy I can glue my hip to. And yet another part of me thinks that I am just destined to a life lived lonelier than I'd prefer. Honestly, I don't see how I even have the time to think about such things lately with how busy I am...

Interesting how this new format allows me to ramble more. =) I hadn't thought it was possible.

Huggles!