A Concatenation of Ponderance

I have reached an interesting emotional duality this past week. I am simultaneously embitteredly unaffected by life and yet the most joyful and free that I have felt in quite a while. I am seeing the world through a new light of reality that I would have once thought would bear down on my soul. But in the contrary, this view of life has given me the cold, hard knowledge that I have been missing. It is the integral key to manipulating the world around me that has been missing from my strategy thus far. Hmmm... more contemplation later...