Nightmares

If it is not one thing it is the other. I have swung full spectrum and now that I can sleep again it is all I want to do. Now I am having trouble staying awake in class... I have so much to do and I am so stupid that I keep adding things to the list. I really am sato-masochistic. Why else would I put myself through all this? But if I didn't I would be curled up in a ball sobbing on my bed for sure. Yay for insanity keeping me sane. Part of the exhaustion may have to do with the fact that I finally gave blood and then promptly got sick afterwards meaning my system is fighting the infection with minimum resources. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! It's unfortunate that the only thing that keeps me awake and focused happens to be eating. I so badly wanted to start back on my diet this week now that Boo at the Zoo was over... Damn college making me unhealthy.

Anyhow, I dreamt all night of zombies. I woke up shaking and depressed. I tire of these bad dreams. Granted I kind of asked for this one since I watched Dawn of the Dead before I went to sleep last night but anyhow... In a desperate attempt to calm my nerves I hit the snooze and went back to sleep for 15 minutes and it worked! I dreamt shortly of a man. In a way it may have been a more terrifying dream then the zombies, but it was apparently what I needed to feel... Perhaps my mind is trying to tell me something I refuse to acknowledge. The dream was nice but I still don't think I am ready to try to make it reality. Sigh.

Well everyone, Happy Halloween! My costume this year is a stressed, sick college student with way too much on her mind to expend any energy dressing up for class. I know, I am no fun.

Ghoulish Huggles!