Confidence

Well, life certainly is interesting, I will give you that much. This past week I have been staying with a friend in Pentagon City (great name for a city isn't it?). She is one of my volunteers and was planning on moving out of her place last week but since she still held the lease for the rest of the month, she was willing to let me stay here for a little help with the rent. Turns out she didn't move as planned but we have been roomies. It's been fun. Nice to have a semblance of a social life. Speaking of social life, I met a guy... Call me a dork but he asked me out on HotorNot and I said why the hell not?! We went to a movie, grabbed a couple of drinks, and then went salsa dancing last Friday. It was a blast! We are supposed to go to a Peruvian restuarant this Friday. Yay for ethnic food and cute, intelligent guys!

I have felt a huge confidence boost this past week. I think it is mostly due to my improved body image. I feel amazing! I have lost about 50 lbs since May, and while my goal is another 20 at least, I am very happy with the way I look and feel. I was finally forced to go shopping and buy new clothes as my old jeans were threatening to de-pants me constantly. I think I got jeans that fit me right for the first time in my life, and I am smoking hot!

I am also feeling good about where I am in life. I am still struggling with the fear of the unknown, of imminent failure, of unemployment and disappointment... But I know that I have a ton of options and something, somewhere along the lines, will work out. If nothing else, I just head home, study for the GRE and start applying for grad school. But I don't think I will have to... I have built up a fairly good support system here with friends and references. I am currently talking to a ton of potential employers. Most of them are merely part time work and only a few of them really involve things that directly relate to my career. But they all keep me at the zoo and they all let me hang out in DC longer. So wish me luck!

I get a day off tomorrow. I plan to hunt down an art store to replenish my canvas supply and satisfy my urge to paint. Should be fun!

Huggles!
~me