Resolved

Well friends, in keeping with my new years resolution I went jogging this evening. Yes, I jogged a whole one block! Not much, I know, but it is a start. And unfortunately it was also enough to trigger a full blown asthma attack. I was so excited over the summer when it seemed like my asthma was fading away. I went jogging countless times without any issues. I think the cold air is the culprit. I have known for a long time that I am allergic to the cold. It is a rare symptom of asthma called cold urticaria. Which means, cold triggers an allergic reaction in my skin and can also cause an asthmatic response.

I can remember a time as a child when I loved to go sledding with my family. And then I can also remember as I got older, trudging up the snow covered hills, gasping for air, glasses fogged and little tears freezing on my cheeks. And so I stopped sledding... I refuse to let my asthma control me like that anymore. If I still had health insurance, I could count on advair to help me but alas I am poor... Let's hope I can condition my body past this and manage to jog regardless. I am disgruntled at my slip back down the slope towards obesity since the holiday season started. I need to crack down, steel my self restraint, and get a hold of my appetite. No more eating because I am bored. No more eating because I am stressed. I need to eat more healthily! My goal is to first lose the 5 pounds I put on this past month and then to lose upwards of 30 more. And on the way I plan to tone and tighten and generally get fit.

Blah, blah, blah right? Sorry I just needed to set it down in words for myself. Wish me luck!

~Huggles!