I spend far too much time of the computer lately...

I had a really nice time tonight. I went to dinner with a good friend of mine, Jim Nitzche, I guess you could call it a date. We spent a lot of time simply talking and it was wonderful. We have a lot in common and he is very smart and witty. Definitely someone who I would like to spend more time with.

And then there is Ray... He wants to talk about last night. Yea, here comes the bad Hannah again. So I've been flirting with more than one guy at a time... Damnit how do I take it back? How do I put one on hold? I know I can't explore both at the same time. That isn't fair. But they are both such great people who intrigue me.

And Richard, I've hurt our relationship... I don't know how to fix it. I want it to flow like it used to but right now I feel so shut out... I feel so helpless. I wish we didn't live 3 states away from each other... I just want to hug him and hold him and help him release all the pain.

Arg! My life would be so peaceful without men, yet so boring and lonely...

Frustrated Huggles...