What a weekend! I am so exhausted! I worked my little butt off competing. And while I didn’t score all that well, that was to be expected seeing as it was my first tournament and I had little to no help getting prepared. However, now that I have seen how the events go and what is expected of me, I have so many ideas for new pieces! I’m very excited about the next competition.

I adore the speech team. I got to do so much bonding with Emily, Mark our coach, and the boys; Jeremy, Jason, and Sotery (Sam). They are so wonderful in all their obvious homosexuality! Actually, I’m beginning to think that I am a gay man in a woman’s body. I know that this sounds strange but I just fit in so well with them! (all except for maybe their tendency towards shallowness). But think about it, it makes so much sense! It would explain why I am never happy in a relationship with a more normal man, I crave sensitivity. And since most of the more feminine men in the world are gay because they desire the same qualities, the chances of me as a woman finding my wonderful feminine, sensitive, caring guy is looking less and less. It would also explain my intrinsic fascination with female sensuality. Sigh. Looks like I’m screwed in life. Oh well, I still hold that I need to find a way to clone and then date myself. I love me!

So even though speech has challenged me, frustrated me, angered me, exhausted me, and at points even depressed me, I am going to stick with it. It is the first activity that I’ve taken part of in a while that has challenged me so highly. I refuse to let it scare me away. I will not back down from the stage fright, bitchy judges, and non-responsive coach (don’t get me wrong I adore Mark but I obviously was not his priority this weekend). I will dig in my heels and shine in the face of adversity.

Look out speech world, here I come!

Huggles!

P.s. Oh my god (no pun intended teehee) I have so much studying to do before finals next week. ARGGGGGGGH!