Broken as Usual

Well its been life as usual, meaning nothing is as usual. It is strange. Some parts of life I understand so bluntly and integrally that I breeze right through them. But there are a few very important parts that just leave me stumped. It's like I hit a road block and have no idea how to go around so I just sit in front of it, hoping that triple A will come with roadside assistance and enlighten me. Love, relationships, trust, physical intimacy.... I can't seem to work out the kinks...

Anyhow, I'll just keep ignoring it I guess. It seems to work for the most part except for when I get stupid. Or for example, my friends all gang up on me to set me up with one of their friends... Long story short, he's a nice guy and who knows, maybe I'll get another good friend out of it. I honestly can't see it becoming more knowing the state of my emotions lately. Poor guy though, I hate to get his hopes up just to have him realize I am broken...

Sigh.