Blanketed and Balanced

I feel very alone in the world today. Though not in an entirely bad way. It is almost like I am blanketed from the world by a thick fog that I am walking through. Sensory information seems dulled, softened almost. Like I am floating in a pool of dark, warm water. It is very peaceful if not slightly disconcerting. Perhaps due to my lack of sleep or copious amounts of attention I have directed towards studying. Or perhaps because I have turned a large amount of mental processes inwards in self reflection. I feel balanced and strong wrapped in my bubble.

Yesterday was a very good practice. Fighting was strong and we kept going into the dark and the deep fog of the night. The park finally turned our lights back on which pleased me to no end. I am feeling more confident in my fighting but think I have a huge amount of improvement to undertake this winter. I need to make a strap shield and learn to fight with that. Also on my list is torso armor, a helm, a war skirt, and new bracers and grieves. Last night I told Madog that I would like to become a page. This is my first official step to becoming a knight. Once I have accomplished my armor, I will have completed the requirements to become a squire and will have to finish a task. Then the real work begins. I felt a dynamic shift in myself when I made the decision. A shift in the balance of myself perhaps. I am excited to challenge myself and see where this takes me.

Well, one test down for the day. One much harder test and two papers to write before I can be done with this mental exhaustion.

Huggles