Yea so, school sucked today, and work.... But I won't go into it now because I am here with my Josh, and all is better!!! This is the most relaxed I have been since... well, before the accident. I still really need a backrub though, oh well. Oh and I wish I could help Jessica with her problems with Dave more. Sigh, hopefully she decides on what to actually write in that letter. Well I would write more but I have an awesome guy over there who is all alone. Yay! He is so cute. =)

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Stress level lowering... the tests that I was worried about didn't turn out as bad as I thought. I'm catching up on homework rather quickly. And I might actually get some sleep tonight! I'm in the school library right now waiting for the band concert at 7. And I'm steadyily looking forward to Saturday as I might actually get to see Josh for once in my life! lol

Tomorrow night I'm going to hang out with my awesome body Jess at shiny Denny's. Yay! Another thing to help me get through tomorrow! I'm so glad I have so many great friends! I don't know what I'd do without them

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Wow, today didn't turn out nearly as great as I was hoping. My head is maintaining a steady throbbing and my whole body seems to ache. I'm exhausted and have this overwhelming urge to spend hours crying.

I have so much work to make up in school that it makes my head spin... I'm so lost in calculus and I have a test in there tomorrow that I still have to take even though I wasn't there. Though it was fun disrupting my classes today by showing everyone the pics of my accident.

I did get to hang out with Jess, Matt, and Keith though we didn't go swimming. It was fun for awhile... I'm just feeling so tired. (and no Josh that's not the second meaning of the word hehe). I feel really bad though because all my friends wanted to cheer me up but I didn't even know why I was upset other then I'm mega stressed. Oh well, tomorrow I will get caught up pn my studying and I egt to watch Keith's band concert!

Josh couldn't find a ride to practice either... I just want to fall asleep in his arms right now. I know it sounds sappy but I really miss him. And it didn't help that my ex was totally trying to "be there for me" and I didn't want to be mean and tell him to go away. It was just to much to deal with.

Well I'm going to go take a nice hot bubble bath and put off my homework until tomorrow morning, I'll just get up super early to finish it, hopefully.

Good night
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So yea.. I figured a nice quiet day at work would be a good way of getting over the whole schock of the accident and it seemed as if it would be a slow, easy night. Until... We had a dog come in who had been attacked by the family's other dog. The poor thing's throat was literally ripped out and it had cut its jugular vain. Probably the most tramatic case I've ever seen and there was nothing we could do for it because it had lost too much blood. So once we calmed down the hysterical, wailing owners we had to put the poor thing out of its misery. I don't think it could feel anything though as it was in too much in shock... Sigh that's totally the worst part of my job but it has to be dealt with. I'm gonna go and cry now... =(

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I scored another day off of school today.. though it wasn't exactly a good thing as I know I'm going to be way behind... especially in Calculus. Sigh, oh well I spent most of today doing hmwk and studying and am not even near caught up.

I have to work tonight too, which isn't too bad because I love my job. I mean how many 17 year olds do you know who work at a veterinary hospital. It totally rocks, as long as my co-workers aren't being jerks.

And I wish it were tomorrow because I get to go swimming with my friends Keith, Jess, and Matt after school and then I get to see Josh! Hopefully I can convince my brother to drive to Hinckley and pick him up. Because I want to hug Josh and never let go... He is so grand Grand GRAND!!! lol

Off to do more math hmwk before my ride gets here to drive me to work. Blech.

Huggles!

Ok, hi so... my life yea... where to begin...

Well I had the most grand first date with the most wonderful guy last night. Josh is such a sweetie. We went up to Playhouse square to see a musical called 42nd Street. It was phenomenal!

And it still remains the best date ever even despite the run in with the telephone pole on the way home. Blind curve, black ice, 4 hours in the ER... Lovely night but all worth it for a night out with Josh. And I'm just glad neither Andy, Dawn, Josh, or I were hurt.

But right now I'm feeling really blechy. My head feels like someone is pounding in it to get out, my neck is complaining, and I can't concentrate on anything... the doctor said it should get better by tomorrow. I hope so, but I'm staying home from school again.

I know what would make it all better... Josh! I really want a big hug but he's not here unfortunately and neither of us have our liscense yet...

Well gonna go sleep and dream of Josh now...

Huggles!