Mah nah mah nah!

Lalala... Doot doooo doo doo doooo. Mah nah mah nah! *Grin*

I have all these projects half started in my head and I don't know which one to concentrate on first!

I'm feeling very random and spontaneous today but have no medium through which to release said random, spontaneous energy!

Hmmm, what mischevious trouble can I get myself into?

Huggles!

Winter Wearied

I am feeling so incredibly out of phase today. One minute I'm elated and then the next I've got tears in my eyes without completely knowing why... Maybe I'm just tired.

And I've got this overwhelming feeling of loneliness which is really strange since I'm currently talking to several friends... Like I'm waiting for something or someone and I just keep getting stood up.

Sigh, I dreamt about being at Ragnarok last night. It was wonderful... And not even just the awesome people and fighting and fun... But the deep green grass and sunshine and endless blue sky and birds singing and water flowing and warmth and laughter and barefeet and .... spring ... summer. I'll be back to my spritely old self once I get some sunshine on my winter wearied face...

And maybe a hug....

Sigh.

I'm an invalid.

Thanks friends for hanging with me through that period of aggravation. Today all the negative feelings that have been festering inside me boiled to the surface in the form of physical ailments. I think I managed to scratch my eye with my contacts again, and anyone who has felt that can sympathize with how agonizing that pain is... And on top of it I was assaulted by some sort of respiratory ailment. So, I spent all of today sleeping. AAAAAALLLLLL of today... It would have been delightful if not for the terrible discomfort I was in. And for the fact that I was missing my chance to get up close and personal with my favorite sea lion, Huck, at the zoo today. *pout* I'd been looking forward to that for over a month now. Sigh, well at least I think I've kicked this bug's ass now... hopefully... And my eye no longer screams when I am in the light... So things are looking up.

And mentally I feel muchly recuperated. =) So bring it on life. I'm ready for some more kicking and screaming.

Hugglz...

Ps... My Mom says that she doesn't remember saying that about Joe, she was apparently still asleep... She claims that it isn't that she doesn't like Joe, it's just that A.) she doesn't know him and B.) she doesn't want anyone to get in the way of my life goals. However what I haven't been able to get her to understand yet is that if I simply stop seeing people, stop having friends, stop falling in love, stop having a life, then I'll go stark raving mad and lock myself in a closet and wither away into nothing. I'm not going to stop living my life simply because I have a goal to work towards. Hell, I could die next week so I am damn well gonna enjoy life while I'm here. I am a responsible person and can balance school, work, and a social life... In fact, I have been doing just that for years now. So, I am going to continue to hang out with my friends late into the nights and go on dates and have my heart broken. There will always be downs to suffer through but the ups make it so worth it. And I will reach my goals... I will work my butt off for them like I always have, And my friends will help me like they always have! Thank you to all my awesome friends who have helped me gently release stress over time so that I haven't exploded into a million tiny, earth friendly pieces. Thank you Joe, Emily, Amanda, Awen, Jessica, my sisters, and yes especially you Mom, and everyone else who has brought a little sunshine into my life lately and not so lately too. Without you I'd be quite a mess.

Bad mood...

I feel like there is a storm cloud sitting over my head. I can't seem to communicate with anyone, it's like I'm on a different wavelength and I can't stand the static it's causing. I need to get out of the house but have no where to go and nothing to do and no way to get there.

Sigh, I need spring...

(and also desperately need) huggles
~me...

I have got such a raging headache today...

Work was rather stressful. I was interpreting in jungle lab when a little boy ran up to me yelling that his brother was having a seizure. He came out of it after a few minutes but it was terrifying. His father was rather shaken up even though it's happened before. I called First Aid on my radio and it seemed like forever until they showed up. Once they took over I wasn't sure whether I should stay or go but then I noticed the boy's brother standing off to the side and I went to talk to him. He told me all about the snakes he had seen earlier in the day. I hope I helped make it a little easier on him and his father... It was such a shock... I'd never seen a person in a seizure before, luckily it wasn't a very violent one.

Sigh.