Ok, I am so psyched! Just 8 hours of work and a few hmwk assignments stand between me and the Campout! Whew! Rausumea campouts kick total arse! This winter has been too long and too cold and has had much to little partying. I wish I wasn't going to miss the fighting part too but hey, that'll come soon enough. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, check out a sight about my favorite hobby; medieval swordfighting and live roleplay www.rausumea.com . I'm so going to bellydance around a blazing fire to the intoxicating beat of drums, sing drinking songs with my closest friends, and then snuggle up in a cozy tent to spend the whole night with my Taren, (which by the way is Josh's character name. In game I am Ashling).

Sigh, I just hope Kurt doesn't act all weird about me and Josh both being there. I still really care about him darnit. And I know he's unhappy right now and it still rips my heart apart when I think about him. I don't know why. He hurt me so much... why can't I forget about him. I even miss him sometimes, but that's only when I'm thinking about the good times. Then I think about all those nights when I came home crying, or when he made me feel so worthless, or when he almost guilted me into... And I realize that I made the right choice and that Josh and I are so much better together because we're both happy, not just him. It's just that Kurt was my best friend for 2 years and now we can't even talk... It really makes my heart swell with tears.

Well.. much to get done before the campout... and very little time till I'll be in the arms of my wonderful Josh!

Huggles!

By the way, check out my poetry blog if you would like...

http://hannahk.blogspot.com/

I only have one poem up right now but I might post more later... Hope you enjoy.

Ok, I dunno what was going on these past few days, but my blog just wasn't working. Curse you error 203!!! Well, now that I have somewhere to spew my non sensical ramblings yet again, here we go.

First of all, I just want to state how wonderful Josh is. He made me this totally awesome picture of the two of us in his photography class. I woke up this morning and it was the first thing I saw hanging on my bulletin board. What a great way to start the day. The only thing that could have been better would be to wake up to the real thing.

Second matter on my mind, war. Blech, everyone at school today was yelling at each other for their opinions. Why can't anyone have a civilized discussion? This one guy had an awesome shirt that said, "Bombing for peace is like fucking for virginity." Best quote ever! Though I can't decide my definite opinion on the matter. Something needs to be done, Iraq's people are suffering. But I do think that the US rushed into this war and killing on a mass scale thing way too quickly. We should have waited for the UN and we should have given diplomacy a little longer. But I can't change the decision that our chimp of a President made. I don't support him, but I will support our troops over there. I've prayed for them already and I'll pray for them again. Whatever forces or powers there are in this universe, please bring them home safely and keep the souls of the innocents safe as well.

On that note, I'm so glad it's warming up and the sun is out!

Huggles!

testing please work now! woohoo It's working now!

I just got back from the doctor's office and apparently I have a severe sinus infection that is affecting my lungs. Fun fun fun. Which means I probably won't get to fight tomorrow unless these antibiotics work super fast. Oh well, at least I'll get to see Josh, I hope. Dangit I wish I got to see him more often. And Dawn now has decided he is a jerk which really offended me that she would talk bad about him to me like that. And then expect that I wouldn't be upset about it? She just doesn't see what she's saying sometimes. Like nothing I have or do is ever good enough for anyone. Not even my best friend supports me. Sigh oh well, I still think he's wonderful and if she has a problem with it then she can deal with it.

And it's warm outside. yay!

Huggles

Sick... so sick. It hurts to breath and this cough is really annoying. My evil family got me sick, I warned them! Sigh and I really oughtn't miss more school. But.. energy drained.... Must sleep...

Huggles

It's amazing how just waking up warm and snuggly with the sun shining on you can change your state of emotion. Today looks to be a better day. We got all ones at choir contest yesterday and I just ate lunch in the warmth and sunshine. Sure life's not perfect but I'm dealing with it. well I'm going to go do my homework.

Huggles