I can't do anything right.... I'm a terrible person and a bad girlfriend... And I need to learn to shut up when I'm in a bad mood becuase I hurt people.

Josh, I'm sorry. It's not your fault. And I'm not really upset... I was just... alone and my mind tends to wander in the no-body loves me direction.

I want to scream... I can't believe I made him cry...

Yea, sometimes I wish that maybe one of my friends would call me, or email me, just a silly one line note from someone would be nice now and then even. Like I do for them. But no one cares...

And I wish Josh would call me sometime, just to say hi. Or write me a pm without me having to prompt it. But he never does. He doesn't care...

I just wish someone would spoil me sometime. And I don't mean with money or material things, just with love...

So I'm alone on a Friday night. A friday night when I could be hanging out with my friends or boyfriend because I actually studied for 5 hours earlier... But of course no one cares about me so I'm alone. Josh is off having fun somewhere and doesn't even think to see if I'm available to hang out with... Sometimes I just don't understand. I'm so fucking alone in this world.

So this was my wake up call today:

Doesn't Hannah have to work today?
Yea, what time?
3 o clock
What time is it?
2:30
FUCK!

That last line was me as I rocketed out of bed, threw on my pants, and flew out the door. God that sucked majorly. Never sleeping away from home when I have to get up at a certain time ever again. Sorry Josh, you'll just have to deal with it.

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired.

I'm tired. I'm grumpy. I'm hot. I'm hungry. I hate purple haired co-workers. I need a hug.