Ninjas Stole my Bugs!

Well after a long and harrowing night of insect pinning and paper writing and only little blood shed and tears, I am at peace. I have accepted the fate that I wrought for myself. I did what I thought was a good job and it turned out to be not enough and then there was nothing I could do to fix it. I am slightly embarassed to turn in my collection. I keep picturing Dr. Blackledge walking up and asking me where the other half is... I want to make up some cool excuse like my house burnt down taking half my insects with it, or my cat ate them, or my mom threw them away, or a group of ninjas attacked me and I was only able to hold on to the one specimen box while fighting them off "Look! Shuriken holes!" (Hey it is Day of the Ninja afterall). But excuses will get me nowhere, especially when they are lies. So I will accept the fact that I will not get the grade I wanted in this class and learn from my mistakes. And what have I learned? Insects make my brain explode. No really, I bled all over the place last night. Stress=High Blood Pressure=Random Nose Eruptions. But it is all over! In an hour I will turn in my collection and will never be tortured with entomological pursuits again if I so choose.

The snow is falling heavily outside for the first time this season. Big fluffy flakes blanket the ground bringing a soft vibration of quiet in its wake. I am thankful that the cold weather held off for so long. The warmth and sunshine helped me through the end of this semester and now I can spend the last two weeks staring contently at the snow while I study as it has not yet worn my patience. Give it time though... Give it time.

*sneak sneak sneak*
Ninja Huggles!!!

Fluffly Shiny Recesses of my Mind

In efforts to neither whine nor sound pessimistic, the following message is brought to you from the fluffy shiny happy recesses of my mind. The collection is going great! I have absolutely no doubt about the academic success of this project. *convincing nod* I love insects. There is nothing I would rather be doing tonight then identifying these dead things based on their minute hair structure. *eye twitch*

In other news, I think I am addicted to sushi. It is all I can think about. Delicious rice wrapped in seaweed with an assorted lovely filling. All picked up will skillfully wielded chopsticks, dipped into soy sauce permeated with wasabi and then eaten in one wonderfully large bite. Ginger to cleanse palet, rinse, repeat! I am just obsessed with this delicious wonder! I cannot get enough!

And in the eating of this sushi I am at peace. My father is amazing and knowing the stress of exams, brought me home sushimi to soothe my nerves! Father of the year award right there! And apparently the people at House of Hunan wish me luck on my exams.

Just another one of the little things that get me through the day...
Huggles!

Impossible Entomology and the Damn Dam!

I've said it before and I'll say it again. I HATE ENTOMOLOGY!!!! Why oh why did I subject myself to this torture?! I have nowhere near as many specimens as I am supposed to. I need 19 Orders, I have maybe 12. I need 60 families, I will be lucky to have 30. I screwed myself over on this project. I honestly thought I had enough until I started identifying them and lo and behold, I have a bazillion duplicates! And obviously now there is no chance of finding more, let alone by Tuesday. This just breaks my heart knowing I killed all those bugs for no fucking reason. I won't even have a decent grade to justify it with (not that that assuaged my moral discomfort much anyhow). I keep flipping between stressing to no end and not caring at all because I can't do anything to change it. To be fair, everyone else I have talked to in class is in a similar predicament but I doubt that they could all be as bad off or else they would all be pitching a fit to the prof... I just wish it were over already and I could pretend it never happened.

My skin is fairly crawling with worries about this collection and the damn Dam project for Conservation. Off to get them done hopefully soon and then on to study for the actual exams themselves. Oh I do so love academia. *nauseous*

Huggles, because I need them.