So my Mom has left for three weeks... So has my brother and little sister. My Dad is playing with his band right now. And my older sister is at work. I have the whole house to myself! And for once... It feels good. It feels good to come home from a long day of work and just sit and relax. I can be as naked as I want, as loud as I want, as quiet as I want. I can use the computer without asking if it's my turn. I can watch whatever I want on the tv. Oh blissful freedom!

You know the only thing that would make this better? Josh! hehe. But unfortunately he's not allowed at my house even when my parents ARE here. No one is... *pout* My parents are weird.

Well huggles! Off to eat some food and be all by myself.

No second job for me! My sis isn't going to Florida so there isn't any need for an extra person at this time. Partially disappointed, partially relieved and left with a very open night last night. All my friends that live near me were out seeing my Dad's band nd Josh was sooo far away in Hinckley. So I fell back on an old friend... my book.

I love books. Especially well written books. The kind where you can just fall into the character's place and feel everything they are feeling. I love the moments where I completely forget where I am and just laugh outloud at something happy or funny and even when the books bring me to tears. It's a great feeling to cry for no reason.

Well off to the store with me!
Huggles!

La la la la La la la la Happy song. Hannah loves her friends. Her Joshy too! That's Happy song.

=) Huggles

Gar! Someone needs to pull this axe out of my skull! Or maybe it would feel better if someone put one in it... Either way, I hate migraines, loud nouses, and bright lights that make me nauseus!

I love you Josh. Sorry for being a grumplepuss! And hopefully I can actually spend time with you this weekend since I just learned I will be being trained for my second job tomorrow night. Ah the joys of being responsible, overscheduled me.

Huggles.

I felt bad about going over her house just to find you in the first place, but I felt even worse when you weren't there.

I love you. I miss you. I just want to snuggle up in your arms and cry.

Why is it that when I feel the worst there is no one there to comfort me.

I feel worthless. I feel like I can't do anything right. I tried, I did. I just couldn't do it. I refuse to make a commitment then let you down so I'm done... I won't ruin your fun or make a fool of myself. If I stop now then I won't be as much of a failure.

Off to cry now and see if that makes it better...