Shock and Awe

Well an organic chemistry test and a bloody nose later, I am waiting to catch my bus to Alan's house. The test went about as well as the blood loss; short, messy and frustrating but a relief to be done with. Which reminds me I need to call the doctors about my lab results... Good news, we will be getting our home phone line restored on monday! I know, shock and awe!

Nothing terribly much to fixate on today. I rather appropriately spent the morning after the test listening to Gwar while watching black widows hunt. I checked out some Him too, Brandon's favorite band. They are growing on me and actually remind me a lot of Voltaire without the satiric edge to the lyrics.

Well I am off on another metro adventure. Wish me luck!

Huggles
~me!

Hexagonal Packing

There is a form in nature that repeats itself again and again in which 6 objects are arranged around a central object in a hexagon. This seems to be the most space efficient method of arranging objects that need to be tightly packed. It is evident in systems like honey combs and lotus blossoms. And lately I feel like I too am hexagonally packed. I have achieved great balance in my schedule and my life. I have so much going on but I manage to accomplish it all in a limited space of time. Two jobs, school, Rausumea, family, friends, and a boyfriend. I am astonished that I have not burnt myself out in these past two weeks with everything I have been attempting to squeeze in. In fact, I feel better right now then I have in quite a long time. I have reasons to jump out of bed in the morning. I have reasons to smile even when my day is not going well. I have many reasons to simply love my action packed, non stop life!

And now I am off to use my time in a wise and hexagonal manner. Study now and play later.

Hex-Huggles!

Bloodloss! Bloodless?

Well, the doctor thinks it is probably anemia. And of course to diagnose the blood loss it requires even more blood letting. The results will be ready tomorrow and then we will know for sure. If it is what they think it is then it means I have to have to go in for a pap test... ((You want to poke that cold metal thing where?!)) ...in order to go back on birth control so I stop bleeding to death every month. I am hoping it doesn't mess with my hormones like last time because I would rather not go back on the anti-depressants like before.

So life moves on and I am back to studying...
Huggles
~me!

Blitz!

Life feels surreal as of late. Perhaps it is because I suddenly broke the schedule I had established for this semester. Perhaps it is because I have realized I am again capable of feeling for someone as more then a friend. Perhaps it is because I am a dumbass and did not relaize that FINALS ARE NEXT WEEK! How did I let this sneak up on me? I have done absolutely no studying as of yet and I do not want to because it means less time to hang out with my Falls crowd. *pouts* Ah well... such is my life and I will react accordingly and convince myself that limited socializing for a week and a half isn't the end of the world. I will see my friends for a short while late tuesday after the organic chemistry study session and then have them all day wedesday. I will however, be going home thursday night to study and assure a decent nights sleep... Then after the test friday I get to relax and have some fun, perhaps see my dad's band play again. Study Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Finals Tuesday, Wednesday. And then I am free from this semester! That leaves only one year of college left!!!

Priorities in the month of may and june will then turn to my senior honors project, revamping rausumea fetteren/venn/av info, and getting my liscence.

Ugh, I need to get a haircut! My hair is long enough now that if I glance down I can see all the little split ends and they are driving me nutso! I just want to take a pair of scissors and snip them off one at a time. How OCD am I?

Alright, I realize I am rambling. This tends to be my self defense mechanism in order to allow for procrastination in the face of studying. Bad lazy Hannah! Bad! Off to read The Spandrels of San Marco and the Panglossian paradigm: a critique of the adaptionist programme which I believe my professor assigned us to read because he had a date and didn't want to come to lecture. *smirk*

Huggles
~ever so always me!

Blood Loss

I am feeling rather washed out this weekend. Just a thought, but it might be attributable to the large amounts of blood loss I have experienced this weekend. Aside from it being my Make Hannah Want to Tear Out Her Ovaries Weekend, my nose decided to spontaneously combust twice yesterday as well. I wonder if it is perhaps my body expressing how much it misses my darling, nosebleed prone boyfriend. More likely, it is because I am anemic again. Looks to be about time for a doctor's appointment.