Happy Thanksgiving!!!

I am thankful for... so much that if I tried to list it all right now I would not have time to eat the delicious food that I have been cooking. Almost turkey time!!! And then lemon meringue pie!!! Yay.

So in summary I am thankful for my family, both blood and bonded, my friends, my life. For opportunities past and future. For the little pleasures and the big accomplishments. For sunshine and living creatures. For nature and the better nature within in us. And most of all...

I am thankful for yummy food!

*smirk* just kidding...
I love you all the best.
~Huggles!!!

Happy Feet

I have a new favorite movie! I laughed, I cried, I was touched deep down inside. Yes, I am a dork. I cried at a children's cgi movie. But it spoke to me in so many ways! Mainly the message of "I am different and see the downfalls of the world around me and will sacrifice everything to try to fix them". That along with the hugely significant environmental conservation tag and idea that you need to give people a reason to care about the cause for them to save it and then they can make a difference. And even the undershadowing of criticism of blind religious faith in opposition of adaptation pleased me greatly. A good friend of mine once extolled the virtues of flightless plumpies but who knew that cute little computer generated penguins could speak such volumes to me? Now I just need to perfect my dance to convince people to care for the environment and I can save the world too.

Huggles and chilly feet!
~me

Peace and Sparkles!

I feel sparkly again. It is always amazing to see how clear the world looks once you hit the reset button. The lab practical that has had me nauseus from stress for a month is over. I walked in sat down, calmly answered the ones I knew and made up the rest with a smile on my face. I looked around the room at my grimacing peers and realized, yet again, life is what you make of it. I know fully well that no matter how much more I studied for that test, I would have failed it. Everyone has a weakness and one of mine is lab practicals. It doesn't mean I am stupid or a failure. It just means that I should reprioritize things so that it isn't something I stress about. And besides, I will still pass the class regardless. Perhaps not with the A I desire but sometimes that is the way things have to be.

Breathe deep, seek peace, and of course...
Huggles!

Anything and Everything

After dredging my feet along the bottom of my ocean of despair for two weeks, I have regained bouyancy and am floating towards the surface peacefully. On Saturday morning my pain reached a feverpitch and I was convinced that I could not spare the time from my studies to go on the scheduled trip... I wouldn't have fun anyways because people didn't like me and I was far too stressed and drowning within my own sorrow. But I had made a commitment to my friends and family and so I went. The first few hours were awkward. A veritable tug of war occured within myself between the introverted, depressed, and uncomfortable side that has surfaced as of late and the good old fun loving, self confident, thrives around people side. And with a snap, I was able to cope again. I spent the full time of my short weekend vacation just enjoying my family and friends without a care to my neglected homework. I could breath easy and was without splitting headache or nagging self doubt. I laughed and partied, smiled, talked, met new people, and even let myself get closer to someone than I have been in a long time. It was a weekend of realignment and release. I feel in control of myself again. The stress is reappearing in my muscles unfortunately but it was too much to hope that all the symptoms of this time of year would be gone. Thankfully now I can deal with it. And anything and everything else that comes my way for that matter.

Speaking of dealing with anything, I am off to write a paper that for two weeks I have been unable to clear my head to concentrate upon. It is good to be back.

Huggles that could light up a room for everyone!!!