The world would be a better place...

This really touched me:

There is something so integrally beautiful about a hug. It expresses the most basic trust, affection, and universal human need to be accepted and loved. The world would be a better place if everyone could campaign so openly for honest and simple love. We all need the same things, so why can't we just embrace it?

I would like to think that I can make the world a better place, one hug at a time. Whether that hug be physical or emotional, it is a powerful force. It is little things like this that give me hope...

Huggles!

A Glowing Moment

I had one of those random people encounters today. You know the kind, where you are thinking about something or someone and then out of no where that someone shows up and brings up that something... Ok, that was about the vaguest statement I have made in a long time. Anyways, the someone was a TA that I had in a class previously that saw me and stopped to talk today. The something that he brought up was graduate school and some of what is involved in getting in. This has been a lot on my mind lately and it was reassuring to hear from someone who has been through it already that it isn't too intimidating. Ok, so not too extravagant right? I guess what made it stand out it my mind is that he may have been flirting with me... And it was nice to have a guy who is both accomplished and in the biology field notice me. I am probably just hallucinating but it made me smile at least. That lovely glow after a successful social interaction is always nice. And it is rare these days for the walls I have put up to let me acknowledge such. Too bad it was only fleeting... Ah well!

Oooo Shiny!

I wish I had something profound to say today. I feel like I ought to have something important and life changing to impart to you. But I don't. Basically, I am bored. So I will impart triviality upon you instead. I bought a belly dance hip scarf yesterday with lots and lots of shiny jinglies! Actually I bid on three, have won two, might win the third too (kinda hoping I don't because I oughtn't spend that much money, but that isn't the point!). One is already shipped and I hope it gets here by Octoberfest!!! Speaking of Octoberfest, I cannot wait! Now not only can I fight and hang out and party and belly dance for half a week, but I can be jingly and shiny while I belly dance! Woohoo!

In other news, my sister bought a new car so I can finally take my drivers test. Maybe I can actually achieve my adult status for real... I really think the added independence of having my liscense would help both my social and professional life. I consider it my biggest failure in life thus far that I haven't gotten it... Before the end of the year I am determined to fix that. Hopefully...

Well, thats all that I can think to share with you. Now I guess I have to quit procrastinating about doing my homework.

Huggles!

Love and Loneliness

I think I pissed off my little sister. I do not mean to yell or be grouchy or nitpick... It's just that sometimes, something has to be said! Lil sis, since I know you read this from time to time... I am sorry that I am difficult to get along with lately. It is hard to remind myself that my actions, and my words, affect those around me differently then I mean them to at times. You are growing up into such a wonderful young woman and I only want to see you succeed. I see you making mistakes I have made and am trying to hold myself back from telling you what to do. I know you need to learn through your own experiences. Though I miss the days when you used to ask me for advice. And as for tonight, I just don't understand how someone as smart as you could support the improper care and display of an endangered species. I know you don't think of it in the same way I do and your passions lay in different areas but it hurt that you disregarded my previously expressed concern. It just leaves me little hope that I can ever change society when my words do not even have an influence on my sister's choices... Sometimes it all just seems worthless... Anyhow, I love you and as much as you may hate it, you will always be my little sister and we will probably always annoy each other. I just need you to know it is only because I love you...

Being single has taught me more and more to appreciate the people who are around me on a regular basis. Boyfriends come and go but family will always be there. And there is nothing in the world that I would trade for my family. Even when that family is constantly a reminder of what I am missing in the romance department. It is hard to be civil around my siblings and their significant others because, well, half of me doesn't approve of them in some ways and the other half of me just longs for that type of relationship again. I can deal with it when I am not around the reminders but once that memory triggers I have trouble controlling my moods... I am trying though for the sake of both my family and my friends, and myself for that matter. Luckily I know I am strong enough to make it single, I just hope my family is strong enough to deal with me dealing with it. ;)

Huggles