Pain and Anger make lousy bedfellows...

Argggg!

Ok, now that I have that out of my system, I can suffice with only murdering a few dozen in frustration...

What a day!

Frustration #1: Sucky day at work, somewhat abandoned by supervisors.

Frustration #2: Leader of my unit in Foamfighting is causing problems and I'm sick of it. Tired of "waiting for things to get better". It is time to take some action. Not looking forward to stress this will cause.

Frustration #3: On way home from hearing Dad's band play, Joe's car ran out of gas... No biggie, he's not used to the fuel gage, called his mom, she was on her way, and the battery died... Had to jump car after refilling with gas... (Joe's Mom to the rescue! I so adore her.) No problem, wasnt too upset about this until I got home and mentioned it to mom and she starting admonishing me about how "I could do better!" better than what?! "Better then a guy whose car battery dies!" What?!!?!?! That's so fucking ridiculous I can't stand it. So he's a scumbag bc he had car problems?! The logic does not follow! I can't deal with this. I don't get her. I feel so hurt. Like my best friend has betrayed me... I never thought I'd say this but I guess I just can't talk to her anymore. Nothing I do is good enough anymore... What happened to my mother who was my best friend and understood and gave constructive advice?! I feel so alone right now...

So yea, I'm going to go and cry myself to sleep... God I wish I didn't have to work tomorrow.

(I need)Huggles
~me...

Stop!

So Mom and I walked into Chipotles for lunch and Mom suddenly started chuckling. It took me a few minutes to get her to tell me what was so funny, but apparently there was a stop sign on my butt. =) I was wearing my really cute black underwear with a red glittery stop sign on the back but didn't even think about it when I threw on my light khaki, very thin material scrub pants before work. Well she assured me it wasn't that noticeable and then I was bent over at work petting a cat and my co-worker Kathy exclaimed, "Hannah, Stop what?!" She thought it was hilarious and immediately pointed it out to Dr. Price. Blush....

Mom actually let me drive home from work tonight. It's the first time she's let me drive in the snow for months. Unfortunately, the steering wheel was freezing and my fingers have suffered thusly. They are swollen to twice their normal size right now due to my allergy to the cold. It feels very tight and it is somewhat difficult to type.

Huggles!

Grrr.... Can't get trillian to work tonight...

Forty Two!

Mmmmm.... 2 words, chocolate strawberries! They are possibly the most wonderful creation ever concocted. Whoever the first person that endeavered to create them deserves a hug, (it was probably a woman ;) . Last night was a splendorous evening and I'm still smiling from the glow of it. =)

And tonight looks to be fun as well... As soon as my Dad comes and picks me up from the University, I'm going to meet Amanda at Fodder's house and we are going to practice our singing for Winter Wolf Feast. This has been coming along splendidly. I am really glad that Amanda asked me to do this with her, I had missed singing oh so much. And she and Joe are always a blast to hang out with.

And I get to see my dearest Awen on Saturday. I am very much looking forward to talking with her, even though the subject doesn't bode to be all that light hearted.

Hmmm... Still got another hour to kill. Grrr I need to get my liscence and a car!!!!

Huggles
=)

What a splendorific birthday this year!

I just wanted to thank everyone who helped to make my birthday totally awesome! This was probably the best one I've ever had. As usual I didn't really ask for anything but decided not to tell people they weren't allowed to get me anything. My Dad really surprised me when he bought me the Cd burner and speakers for my computer. And he and Mom are discussing financing a laptop for me! I got a beautiful card from my Aunt Janet and wonderful wishes for happy days from all of you, my wonderful friends. I got to hang out and sing with with Jess, Amanda, and Joe. My boss bought me a scrumptious seafood pizza the next day.

But if all that wasn't enough to keep me smiling until my next birthday, then my Mom's present surely put it over the top. She walked up to me the other day and said "Do I smell like a tatamunda?" I looked at her incredulously as the wheels turned in my head. Background info here, a tamandua is an arboreal (tree-dwelling) anteater that lives in South America. They have prehensile tails and curved claws to climb with and they are simply adorable! I have loved them ever since I first learned about them a few years ago. Well long story short, my Mom had gotten to pet one at the zoo! She had gotten to pet one and she couldn't even say the name right!!! I was not too pleased.

Turns out, she had arranged with the keeper for me to get to pet one as well! So yesterday while I was on break at the zoo, I went and found the keeper and she took me and my coworker Stephanie behind the scenes in the rainforest and I got to touch Yoda the 5 year old male tamandua. It was so cool! He curled his fingers around mine and squeezed, he tried to climb my leg, and he ate mealworms out of my hand. Then she let us pet the prehensile tailed porcupine. Very carefully of course, except for the nose which was soft and fuzzy. Then she introduced us to the male small-clawed otter that is kept isolated in the back. Even better, she took us down behind where the orangutans are housed at night. Ty and Chiquita, two of the orangs had refused to go on exhibit that day so I got to see them up close. Too cool! And she gave me the Christmas card she had forgotten to give me, which was painted by the orangs!!!!!! Needless to say, I spent the rest of the day beaming!

Hugz!!!

Fodderus Maximus! Hehehe Toga parties are so much fun, especially the kind where it takes so long to put on your togas that the party is over when you get there and you go eat cheesecake at Dennys in them instead. =) 

The togas would never have worked without the mad toga styling skills of Joe's Mom. She rocks! 

I hate pics of me *pout* Only downside of a toga (aside from the unintended drafts) is that they are definitely not slimming! Quote of the night... "Girl, you have got a bust to pin a medal on!"- Joe's mom. Check out Joe's awesome friend Sarah who I adore! She gives awesome back rubs.