I miss Josh... I'm pathetic... Time for bed. The sooner I go to sleep, the sooner I get to see him. I wonder if he thinks about me too...

Ok, so I got my temps renewed this morning and NO TETHRIN I DO NOT HAVE TO WAIT 6 MORE MONTHS TO GET MY LISCENSE YOU BASTARD!!!!! hehe Whew, that's a relief. I can get my liscense as soon as I finish Drivers Ed. And the new pic on my temps is super cute. hehe.

I'm alittle nervous about our Renn Faire group now... We are performing in 7 days and we have no script, no costumes, and D just kicked the secretary out of her house for reminding her of that... Oh well, It's not my reputation if the whole thing goes to pot.

I got a raise! Another one! Woohoo! I love my job. =)

I miss Josh... Oh wait did I already say that? =) I'm going to take the pup to practice with me for a bit Saturday so I can see him.

Huggles!

Sleeeeepy Hannah. The pug chewed up my glasses, to smithereens! Arg, they are nothing but bent wires now and I have no idea where my lenses are... I guess I should find them and see if they're salvagable. This depresses me. I really wanted to take out my contacts for a day because they've been bothering me but now I can't. Why can't anything I have stay good? Why is it that when I fianlly have just enough money to cover all my expenses, another decides to spring itself on me? I think I'm going to cry. I really liked my glasses.

Well, I'll be looking after the puppy at least till Monday night. It turns out the old owners did in fact use flea meds on it but they can't remember what kind, how much, or when... So basically, they're idiots. But maybe, just maybe the wobbling will be because of that toxin and it will wear off and hecan live a normal life. If not, I either have to find him a good home with someone who's willing to deal with it (it's not that bad, really. I hardly notice anymore) or figure out some way to do it myself.

I miss Josh... It was nice seeing him for a little last night but still... I just really adore the feeling of his arms around me, his heart beating with mine. Any night that I'm not sleeping in his arms is a restless one.

Drifting, Sleepy Huggles.

Feet wet from the dew, the world shines as the sun yawns and pulls itself from bed and stretches it's arms to the ground. I'd almost forgotten how beautiful mornings were. The pup woke me up at about 7 am. I wasn't planning on getting up till 10 but I couldn't ignore his crying. He looked so cute wobbling around in the grass. He can't quite walk straight lines but he can get around pretty well. I've named him Weeble lol. He sat in my lap for an hour this morning and just wanted petted, I think the poor guy hasn't gotten much attention. I hope we can find him a home... because otherwise I'm going to take him because he deserves a nice life with someone who knows what they're doing.

Huggles and puppy kisses!

Okay so, what was I supposed to do? If you had to sit by and watch a cute little angel of a pup be euthanized just bc there was no one to watch it overnight, would you let it happen? Of course not! I had to bring it home with me. So what is the poor thing has a neurological problem? It's still a life! And it could be just a toxin and might wear off and if not, he can live happily even with it... as long as he finds the right owner...

I fell in love with this puppy instantly and it's now sleeping in my lap. It's the first time it has stopped shaking all day. The poor thing's already had a rough life and it's only a few weeks old. =) I'll do everything I can to help it. You don't throw away a life just because it's a little banged up. We all have a part of us that's a little shaky, his is just external.

Huggles!

PS. I miss Josh

Okay so, what was I supposed to do? If you had to sit by and watch a cute little angel of a pup be euthanized just bc there was no one to watch it overnight, would you let it happen? Of course not! I had to bring it home with me. So what is the poor thing has a neurological problem? It's still a life! And it could be just a toxin and might wear off and if not, he can live happily even with it... as long as he finds the right owner...

I fell in love with this puppy instantly and it's now sleeping in my lap. It's the first time it has stopped shaking all day. The poor thing's already had a rough life and it's only a few weeks old. =) I'll do everything I can to help it. You don't throw away a life just because it's a little banged up. We all have a part of us that's a little shaky, his is just external.

Huggles!

PS. I miss Josh

Der Kopf tut mir weh. Und mein Ruecken auch. Auuuu!

Ok so my life is falling apart around me, but somehow I can only manage to numbly cry about it. I think the only thing holding me together is knowing I have a wonderful guy's shoulder to cry on and a family who will always lend me a helping word.

I'm terrified that something is gonna go wrong and they're gonna make me go back to hell, I mean high school. I mean first the stupid college forgets to send my reg. packet. Now, my temps have expired and rumor has it that I have to wait 6 months after I renew to get my liscense! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I can't take it! Something in my life needs to flow smoothly for once. Maybe it just needs a little sanding around the edges...

I need a hug... I need a backrub... I need a Joshfix... I need a drivers liscense...

Stressed Huggles...

Hehehe. I've just discovered that my computer up front at work has internet access. This might be a bad thing because I'm not supposed to use it. Hehehe. I'd better go before I get caught.

~Mischevious Huggles!

Am I a bad person? I don't feel like one.... But I feel like I should feel like a bad person... Does not feeling like one make me an even worse person? And the worst part is, I don't think I regret it. But that's bad! I'm a bad person. Maybe if I keep telling myself this then I'll feel bad like I should and I won't do it again. Sigh... I don't feel like a horrible person... but I do feel like punching a wall.

I love you Josh... I always will.

I really am at a lack for words right now. Words to express this strange new feeling inside of me. I've felt it everyday since I met you and comtemplated it but I still don't know how to tell you what it feels like. I'm filled inside with millions of bubbles of sunshine and they tickle when they burst. I can't help but smile when I think of you. Lying next to you last night while you slept, I just looked at you. And I never wanted to look away. I love you.

May your heart always runneth over!
Huggles!