Sigh

I am a maelstrom of feelings today. In the very core of me, deep within me, is an intense sadness that stabs at me periodically. I cannot for the life of me pinpoint its cause and therefore cannot dispell it. On top of that I am fighting a ball of anger directed at my boss. They are "letting me go" in August when I leave for my trip to Ecuador. Two weeks of vacation cancels out three years of loyal hard work?! I feel terribly unappreciated and I wish I had enough of a backbone to tell them so. Then there is the stress about my honors project paper which makes me feel very lost and frustrated. Argh! I think I might be able to cope better if I slept but even though I close my eyes I cannot make my mind quiet itself.

At least there are a few happy thoughts to make me smile now and then. There is a chance for me yet. =) I really wish I could just ignore my paper and start in on my armor but you know me... Responsible to the point of migraine. *yuck* It will feel amazing once I do have it written though.

Huggles!

A Well Earned Beating

My prediction was right, today was indeed an epic day. I am covered in bruises and aching from head to toe. I wasn't quite on my game for fighting and felt weird having not brought garb but Avalon practice rocked. I hope to make it a weekly habit, perhaps it will be what finally whips me into a decent fighter. Imagine fighting two nights in a row all summer long, I will be unstoppable! Or at least slightly more intimidating... *smirk* I do so love the feeling of a well earned beating and the residual fatigue. I am off to pass out and dream of more warm days and swords swung.

Hope for good weather tomorrow so I can do it again!

((Sidenote: I cannot believe that I posted three times today, I need to get a life...))

Of Course they Exist!

A friend showed this to me today, knowing that I would like it. It reminds me of the faeries that I used to play with when I was a little girl. They lived primarily in the plants on the side of the neighbors' house. But when they tore out a bunch of bushes and pruned everything, I never saw them again. I wish I could have fought for them too... Sometimes I wonder if I made it all up, but I do believe in faeries.

Today will be a good day, I am sure. I only got an hour of sleep last night but I made considerable progress on my honors project. It is predicted to hit 70 degrees today! And I get to hang out with Dawn after class and then I am going to Avalon practice, where methinks I get to see a certain very cute guy that I know. Life is good and I smile through my sleep deprivation.

Huggles!

Famous!

I would just like to announce that this is awesome! I was looking at my professor's page to get the details about some of his research and had no idea that he had put me on there for my honors project! I feel famous, hehe! I love that picture too! Choctaw has such a great smile!

I know return you to your regularly scheduled programming, I have a paper to finish!
~Huggles

Life is Good

I am feeling phenomenal this weekend. It is amazing how much a very simple thing can affect someone. A mere brush of my lips against someone else's and my spirits are lifted for days. I feel beautiful and confident and unbeatable. The sunshine has been caressing my skin and now I get an extra hour of its warmth within my day. Springs' arrival is promising on the horizon and I find hope in the fact that I have survived another long, dark night.

I got the opportunity to fight twice this past week and it felt glorious. Though neither times was I performing at my optimal, it felt good to out on the field. I am desperately trying to develop greater confidence in my fighting abilities. I spoke with Sir Shub and he said that he would seriously consider taking me on as a squire. This is wonderful news for me and makes the prospect of becoming a Knight even brighter. And I finally bought my leather! Now I merely need to make it resemble some form of armor.

In other news, the long awaited movie 300 has finally graced me with its viewing pleasure. And I do mean pleasure. I enjoyed the movie immensely! It is visually stunning and very artistic. Many of the scenes and characters had me on the edge of the seat with how breathtakingly beautiful they were. For once I also loved the plot and found no fault in the acting either. There were plenty of one liners as well as a very effective narration tying the story together. I especially loved the Queen in all her defiant beauty. The theater burst into applause at the council scene. All in all, this will now be amongst my favorite movies of all time and I plan on watching it many more times. Some things did seem to make a little more sense the second time through. Though the movie literally self destructed tonight at the theater! The picture melted into a white screen and it took 15 minutes to fix it, only to have it break again. I spoke with the manager and he gave us all free tickets and let us into a later showing that had already started. It was rather hilarious.

I am looking forward to a sleep in tomorrow and then some good productive academic work. I need to turn in my honors paper draft by Thursday and it is not nearly ready. But I think the ideas that I have been steaming around in my head are ready to flow down upon the paper. This should be a good week, leading into spring break. Temperatures are going up. Practice Wednesday will have an extra hour of sunlight! Hopefully we have as good of a turn out as last week. I would love to have the Avalon guys down again, one in particular. =)

Blah, blah... Here I randomly ramble yet again while I ought to be sleeping. There is just so much on my mind as of late and I wish to share my levity with the world!
Huggles!
~me