Blowing Up and Letting Go

I spent a large part of this morning at work waiting for people to blow up a bridge. And waiting. And waiting. And... well you get the picture. Three times they blasted and only a small portion was felled. Which means I will probably have to sit in an animal area alone again next Saturday until they manage to make the darn thing fall. *shrug* They did make some rather impressive *BOOM*s that resounded through me in a delightful way.

Speaking of impressive, I found some amazing things in the grass today. Walking along, a clover caught my eye. It was a four leaf clover and right in that patch I spotted at least 10 others! I also found two five leaf clovers, and was amazed to find a six leaf clover as well! I have always had a knack for finding four leafers but this was mind boggling. I can use all the luck I can get right now and hopefully this is a sign that things will be going my way.

I am feeling bundled up in stress and confusion and pent up frustrations. I have felt near the breaking point this past week and knowing something had to give or I would become a grumpy wreck, I made a decision. I could not release myself from the bonds of work or school and fighting is as much a benefit as anything else, so the one area that I could simplify my life is my relationships. I have very much enjoyed my time with Chance but something recently has felt a little off. In hopes of preserving our great friendship and releasing my tension a little, we agreed to simply be good friends. He was so sweet and understanding that I almost regretted distancing myself. Thanks for being such a great friend Chance. =)

Please keep your fingers crossed that Monday goes as well for me... Then you can all come visit me in DC over the summer.

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Biting my Nails

Well the rest of the weekend should prove eventful and interesting. I am not going to go into details until after the events are passed but I would appreciate any luck you can wish me. It will either go really well or absolutely horribly but I have my fingers crossed for the former.

I turned in my finished honors project today. I got all of my signatures, printed out a final revised copy, and put it in a spiffy binder. Everyone in the office clapped when I turned it in. I simultaneously felt very proud and very awkward... Lol All in all, I am very proud of the way it turned out. I have gotten a lot of good feedback and everyone seems very impressed with what I did. I managed to make an awesome result out of a far less then perfect situation and for that I feel accomplished. Dr. Blackledge now has me making a poster to present at a seminar next week. I think it will be fun. =) I am very glad that I am mostly at ease with public speaking these days.

So with a 15 page paper due in history of psych next week, 3 finals coming up, this poster to finish, and the events of this weekend looming, I am indeed biting my nails. Though it is not that pleasant because I still have my pink nail polish on from the wedding. *ick*

Anyhow... I am off to write and study and such...
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Worst Day Ever

Well today just plain sucked. I am not going to go into it. I will, however, state that I am tired of being sick. I am also tired of being stressed and broke. I am tired of trying to be an adult. I am tired of trying to figure out relationships. I am tired. You would think that sleeping all day would take some of the weariness out of my mind, but it really just added more weight to my worries. I am tired of feeling alone even though I know I surrounded by people. Sigh.

Well I am off to drown my fatigue in unconsciousness.
Huggles...

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