My New Boy Friend

His eyes sparkled as they looked into mine. Slightly ruffled from the heavy wind, he had a bit of a roguish appearance but seemed delighted as the sun shone brightly upon us. He moved slightly closer to me, holding my arm tight and... promptly vomited a rat tail onto my feet.

*smirks* Yes, my newest best friend just happens to be a turkey vulture. I am lucky enough to have spent the last two mornings volunteering at Medina Raptor Center where Laura has taken me under her wing *no pun intended* to teach me more about working with birds of prey. I am really honored by how much trust she puts in my ability. It's nice to have assurance that I'm capable of doing something right.

Oh and yay for beautiful sunshine these past two days! Let's hope this cold front moves on quickly.

Huggles!

Fuming

Well, now that I'm done with the sobbing and hyperventilating section of this evening, we can move on to the purely enraged part. I am quitting at the veterinary office. I'm tired of being treated like crap. They have no respect for people whatsoever. I went out of my way to help them today when I could have been helping Laura Jordan, or funner yet, could have being have a great time in the wonderful weather at practice. But no, I was nice and covered a shift for someone. And get this, Amy has the gumph to complain behind my back that I'm not working hard enough! I'm dumbstruck... I was so shocked when Dr. Price told me that I couldn't even speak to defend myself. And she didn't tell me nicely either. Oh no, she had to accuse me and yell at me like some 2 year old. These idiots have no people skills whatsoever. I am sick of bending over backwards for them and not being appreciated at all. I'm done. Dad thinks I should just call off tomorrow and tell them not to expect me back. But I won't strand them wuite that badly, I'll give them my two weeks and then let them fall apart at the seams. There is already a noticable difference since my Mom left and I'm only there one day a week. The place is filthy, clients are getting pissed off right and left, and business has dropped to a crawl. I realize the experience is nice and she lets me try things that other vets wouldn't but I think I've learned everything there that I can... I won't have time to give them the hours they want this summer anyways, I'll be at the zoo as often as possible and I need to get some large animal experience.

Alright, so I know I'm rambling, but I'm just so upset... I needed to vent and had no shoulder on which to do it so this venue was a decent substitute. My apologies to anyone who actually decides to read this rage...

Maybe I'll go meditate to lower my blood pressure...
I need a hug...

Boing!

Spring has sprung! Like a lamb, March will soon blossom into April. Today the sun softly caressed my skin and the soft breeze whispered secrets of new life into my ear. What a beautiful day! I celebrated by wearing my first skirt of the season and singing songs of delight with Amanda. Then topped off the evening with strawberry wine garnished with fresh strawberries with my Father.

Tomorrow is predicted to be seventy degrees and agonizingly gorgeous. Alas though I must work in the evening so I can't attend Rausumea practice. Tis a shame too because I've been working on some weight training for my arms and shoulders and wanted to see if it would help my speed at all. I was also looking forward to actually socializing.... I am so lonely lately. Grrr... and it would be nice to beat out some stress. But I guess it will have to wait for SCA practice monday. "Durpell" is always fun to practice with. *smirk*

Well I'm off for some drowsy slumber.
Huggles and Sunshine!

ps... Have I mentioned how much I adore strawberries? They are the shear definition of perfection. Vivid enough to brighten any day with a taste that melts into pure pleasure on your tongue. I wonder who the first person was that was brave enough to taste this sinful looking berry.

I should be at work right now. It is really bothering me that I am not... My sister refused to drive me. I love her to death but seriously, what a bitchy thing to do. It's not like I asked her to take me somewhere frivolous... I needed a ride to work! Sigh... I am determined to get my liscence before school starts again next week. It is imperitive to lower my blood pressure back from critical levels.

Well, at least this gives me a day to rest my throat as it seems that this sinus infection is making one final effort to take its toll on me. I am slowly getting my voice back. So I'm going to treat myself to lots of tea and honey along with my leftover Easter pie! =)

Ps... I'm home and bored for the next three days so if anyone wants to hang out just give me a call.

I should be at work right. It is really bothering me that I am not... My sister refused to drive me. I love her to death but seriously, what a bitchy thing to do. It's not like I asked her to take me somewhere frivolous... I needed a ride to work! Sigh... I am determined to get my liscence before school starts again next week. It is imperitive to lower my blood pressure back from critical levels.

Well, at least this gives me a day to rest my throat as it seems that this sinus infection is making one final effort to take its toll on me. I am slowly getting my voice back. So I'm going to treat myself to lots of tea and honey along with my leftover Easter pie! =)

Ps... I'm home and bored for the next three days so if anyone wants to hang out just give me a call.

Feasted and yet so Starved...

It has been a very pleasant evening. All my senses are content. I delighted my taste buds with feasting, shrimp and lemon meringue pie being the high points. I socialized with family. I entertained myself with good movies.

But there is something... A desire crawling under my skin. A yearning for something I can't have. I haven't quite put a finger on it yet. I am so tightly wound this evening. Very jumpy and easily set off. Something is missing and it is slowly eating me inside.

Sigh...

Baking

It is such a great feeling to create something from practically nothing with your own two hands! So fulfilling and satisfying. To know that it wouldn't be there if not for you, to know that others will derive enjoyment from your creation. Not to mention I myself will derive supreme pleasure from eating it as well.

I spent the last few hours baking my favorite and specialty, lemon meringue pie!

Again the night was spent with my Daddio and I feel I'm bonding with him. Sometimes that man can be so hardheaded when he lets the frustration of life get to him. And in those moments it is so easy to forget what makes him so special as a person. It's nights like these that help remind me why I adore him so and why I am so lucky to have him as my father.

I want to end this productive evening with a peaceful soak in a bubble bath but annoyingly someone has beaten me to it. So with time to kill I continue to contemplate life. It slightly annoys me to live in this hive of activity but I am glad to know that we have provided a safe haven for two of our close friends when they were in need. And perhaps I need that lesson in patience and sharing. I cannot always have what I want immediately as I want it, which is something I am learning as I grow up. The more I learn about the reality of this world, the more I shed the naivete that was fostered in me as a child, the more I realize life is not as clear cut as I want. It is not always as simple as I put in a set amount of work toward a goal and I automatically earn the reward. This lesson was harshly taught to me when I was denied the position I wanted at the zoo even though I was the most qualified. Resilience and adaptability are the fundamentals of survival. I am trying my damndest to roll with the punches and not let the world get me too down when things don't go my way. I figure if I stick it out, eventually the odds will turn in my favor. And if not... eventually I will snap and let them know what happens when you deny me my dreams for no logical reason. =)

Hmmm... Bubbles are calling me.

Ps. Mom hasn't called from her vacation yet. It is currently night three that she has been away. She is in so much trouble when she gets back as she promised she would call EVERYDAY. Gosh, she's worse than most of my ex-boyfriends. =)