I sat last night and tried to clear my mind of the injustices that have surrounded me as of late, but it just made me even more irate, even more depressed, but even more determined.

Injustice #1: My favorite teacher at the University is probably leaving after this year because he is viewed as "too liberal" and "required too much of his students". He is the only teacher there so far to even find a spark of inspiration within me. What is wrong with our educational world when a teacher is punished for actually helping students push the limits of their minds?!

Injustice #2: Jewels and Higz are having their daughter held from them against their will. They finally managed to pull everything together again, they were both working, they got their apartment. And when they went to get Baby Girl from their parents who have been watching her, they were presented with custody papers. It's ripping their hearts apart.

Injustice #3: And always riding at the back of my mind and weighing heavily upon my shoulders is the knowledge that we are steadily stamping out all that is beautiful and natural in this world. That which gave birth to us and even now nurtures us and holds our heads above the primordial ooze. We, the ungrateful progeny, are killing the world around us at an exponential rate. Soon it will collapse upon itself. It is, even now, a sad husk of what it once was. A sobering reminder of all that we have lost and can never have again. It is the worst sin of hubris to look at all the majesty of nature around us and think that it is ours to conquer and corrupt.

Disgusting.

Just thinking about this makes the tears well up in my eyes and my heart engulfs itself in raging fury. What type of a world is this that we are building where the only things that bring light to my eyes are locked away, shunned, and destroyed. What kind of a world is it where educational geniuses are sent away from those they can inspire? What kind of a world is this where loving parents can be barred from that which they care for the most? What kind of a world is this that puts all its emphasis on violence and money when the real beauty and truth is dying in agony right outside your living room window?

It is enough to weigh a person down into depression, into that bottomless pit of despair and darkness where the quicksand of life pulls you ever down in a suffocating cycle of doom. I refuse to be drawn into that quagmire again!

I find in this situation a chance for hope! A ray of light shining through the gathering stormclouds. We can still save the world. Even in the darkness of the approaching apocalypse there is hope.

I just pray that there is still time to make a difference.

Ray took me to see The Polar Express last night. I was rather apprehensive because it was one of my childhood favorites and I was terrified that they would ruin it. It had gotten lots of bad reviews on everything from Tom Hanks sucking to the animation making the characters seem like lifeless robots. However, I must disagree! I truly thought that it was well done. I applaud the animators for sticking with the art style used in the book and while the characters were at time slightly rigid, what can you expect from animation?! They went above and beyond the book and added several pieces of symbolism that gave the adult side of you something to ponder about while the child side got to enjoy that wonderful glow of Christmas spirit. I adored it. I laughed, I cried, I was very pleased over all. This is definitely a movie I'll be buying for my Christmas collection.

Christmas Huggles!

Wow, I really babbled aimlessly on that last post... I think I may have been delirious for parts of today... I hope I didn't hallucinate the fact that I think I did well on my chem test... That would suck.

Well, I'm off to research the psychology of nicotine addiction. That's what I've decided to write my psych paper on. I figure maybe if I understand it more then I'll be able to help people quit more easily??! Sigh, I can't believe I caught a certain you-know-who smoking a you-know-what while he was sick hacking up his lungs anyways! Ugh!

Huggles

I feel a heaviness in my mind and on my chest. Is it the world bearing down on my shoulders or is it simply this flu virus finally taking hold? I am determined to fight this damn thing off.... I have no time to be sick, I'm busy enjoying life and having the best semester at college ever!

So I had, yet again, another interesting weekend. Friday night I went to Ray's and was annoyed severely by the stupidest, most disgusting, and most pointless video game ever. Grand Theft Auto San Anreas is simply putrifying! There are no cool moves, no exciting plots, no awesome graphics... I don't see the point, it is so mundane! Not to mention it focuses your anger and violence at faceless people, not to mention mainly women... I can pardon tv and game violence when it is directed at "the bad guy", it's fun to kick monster ass. But this game truly does teach senseless, everyday violence. It's a good thing Ray doensn't play video games too often or I wouldn't be able to stand it.

So then I helped Jules and Higs move into their new apartment underneath Ray's on Friday and Saturday. That was fun. I really am jealous! I have the sudden urge to move out on my own as well... But you can't beat the cost of rent at home, not to mention the lack of liscence and car hampers it a bit. Sigh, someday.

We were going to play Dnd after the housewarming session friday night, and while we were waiting, Ray made me a hot chocolate with some irish creme in it. Mmmmmm... Then, on a whim, Ray's roommate made me a "raging bull" which was red bull with 151 in it. Then Ray and I went out to the car to get our Dnd sheets and the neighbors down the hall invited us in for a drink. Well these people turned out to be really awesome. Shane and Danielle own the apartment (they used to live in the one under Ray). Danielle is pregnant and she showed me all the unltrasound pics. Yay for babies! She's due in January and his name is Joseph. And Shane was trashed so Ray and I spent the night nursing him back to health since Danielle was obviously annoyed with him. I ended up even having to give him his insulin injection... that was interesting. I can give any injection you could ever ask to an animal, but human was a new experience...

Sigh well the night just kept getting weirder, but I won't ramble about the details here. And I ended up going to work on no sleep. It was fun though. Sunday at work, I got to give injections to several kangaroos and flushed an abscess on its jaw as well. It was quite an experience. I got off at about 1 in the afternoon, went home, and promptly slept until 6 this morning!

Yay for random weekends that fly by in a blur!!!!

I must be catching something because my head is veritably humming and I can't seem to focus on anything....

Fluffy headed huggles!