So Happy I Could Cry

I am so happy today that I could cry. A terrible paradox I know but my emotions are literally that intense today. I am overwhelmed by delight!

First of all... I got two tests back today. Cell and molecular biology I felt confident that I had done well and it is a good thing after my little hiccup on the first test. I got the A that I needed and as long as I get an A on the next test too, my professor will drop the original F. *feels weight lift off her shoulders*

And as for Organic Chemistry... *drum roll* I got a B!!! *beams widely and feels light enough to float away* I was so ready to drop this class and retake it but stuck with it at the urging of my prof. Then when the test date got pushed back I realized that even if I failed it, it would be too late to drop. When I walked away from the test my heart dropped, I was sure I had done terribly. But surprise! A hard earned B, granted a B-, but whatever, I would have been happy with a C. I don't think I'll stop smiling for a week.

On to my other reason to smile... Someone has stolen my heart. A boistrous young pirate who had caught my eye a month ago walked up the other day and took my hand. And now I never want to let go. I had forgotten how wonderful this felt.

On a related note: I apologize if I have been a little hard to reach this past week, I have been staying with my friend Delilah in Cuyahoga Falls. She lives like 10 minutes from campus and it makes the commute so much easier and saves gas money to boot. I will probably be up here a lot over the next 2-3 weeks that I have left of school. I really am enjoying spending time with everyone up here. And it is nice to get out of the house for awhile, though now Caitlin has turned on me and any time I do spend at home will be hell. Sigh, I guess life wouldn't be balanced without some downs to contrast the ups.

Huggles and huggles and huggles and sunshine and huggles and huggles and huggles!

ps. I suxxored in the red axe tourney and now have a new personal failure to correct. Ashling is back with a bloodlust!

Swoon

I haven't felt this wonderful in a good long time. Yesterday I ventured to the lands of Oira Morin. Turns out it is only 11 minutes from campus. Nice and convenient, too bad they don't have practices on monday more often. I had a great time fighting. There were a lot of newer guys who had neither the best handle on the rules nor appropriate field attitudes but I was overall impressed. And hell, even just fighting Kai and Wu Fei could keep me entertained for hours. The weather was beautiful. I am again sunburned. *Note to self, buy sunblock* And I got to hang out with some really great new friends and one old friend that I missed more then I had ever realized. Delilah and I stayed up almost till 3 am last night just talking. And then I dreamt of wonderful pirates who like to hold me close and soft, sweet kisses in the night.

*Swoons*
Huggles!

Hell yes!

This just in... I did alright on my organic chemistry test! *And the crowd goes wild* I don't know quite how well yet thought. Dr. Modarelli walked by in the hall and told me my test scores were definitely improving, meaning I got a C or better. And while I would prefer to find out that it is the better part, at least a C gets me passed and done and happy. I find out the exact grade on Wednesday. Then that leaves one more test and the final and then I am done with organic chemistry forever =) I finished in lab today. 3 pretty derivatives for my unknowns handed in. I enjoy making crystals. It is a very satisfying feeling when the precipitate actually forms... But beyond that, lab is just frustrating and pointless.

In lighter news, I get to go kill things! Killing? On a Monday? Why yes! Oira Morin is having a monday practice because of Easter so I get to go play! I am so excited, I love these people so much! *grins widely thinking of who she will get to see*

So... off to study for my cell test tomorrow and wait for my ride to whisk me away to bloodlust and sunshine.
Huggles!

Musing

I am in a rather reflective mood this Easter evening. Like a pond on a cloudy day some things are clearer then others. In some places the water appears as sky and fools me into thinking the water is bluer then it truly is. But I can convince the sun to shine all becomes clear and I can choose whether to dive in or simply dangle my feet.

My muse has returned and I have written poetry. It feels wonderful. My mind is liberated from its excess baggage and I can process these thoughts further.

I was looking through some old papers looking for my camera warranty and I came across some old pictures and scripts from theatre in high school. I miss the stage so much. The friends and rehearsals, the makeup, the audience, the challenge of delivering my character through my lines and my body. I miss it. I cannot wait until shows start up at the zoo this summer. It isn't quite the same but still delightful.

Well, I'm off to print thank you letters for the Bowling for Rhinos fundraiser. I am amazed at the amount of prize donations we've recieved! It is going to be a great event.

Huggles!