Wicked!

Wow, that practice was killer! Probably the best fighting I have had in two months. There were only an average amount of people and it was darn chilly but it was wicked. I hardly stopped fighting for the three hours that I was there. I had a great time, did some great fighting, and just feel all around good about myself.

And the following av council meeting went well even though we held it outside in the cold. My adrenaline from fighting held through long enough to keep me warm and helped to quicken the pace. I led the meeting and I think we were productive. I feel good about my first month as domari though there is a lot I would like to get done relatively soon.

Well I probably ought to get to sleep. Alas I know...

Huggles!!!!
~me

Good on ya Mate

I just finished watching Steve Irwin's memorial service and I don't think I have a tear left to shed. I have spent a lot of time wondering why I feel so connected to this man that I never met. I have come to a few conclusions. We are made out of the same stuff, the same convictions, the same passions. I want to do what he has done. He has helped so much and touched so many. I can close my eyes right now and see his brilliant smile and hear his call of Croikey. His passion could not be contained. He was flat out like a lizard drinking... How much more personality can one person have? So unique and always true to himself. He is my role model in my career and values as a conservationist. Having him there echoing the meaning and purpose of my life goals, it made me feel like I was not alone in the mission. It was possible to make a difference because he was already out there doing it. At first I felt very alone knowing he was gone from this world but I know he will never really be gone because he lives on in every person he ever taught about life. He lives on in me. And as I watched the stands of the crocoseum full of teary eyed Australians I knew that there were more people who cared because Steve touched their hearts too.

And more then that, his absolute honesty and openness in his shows let me into his life. I shared his friendships, his losses, his family. His love for Terry makes me want to cry out in delight for life. They shared not only a passion for the environment but for each other. I could see it in their eyes. Someday I hope someone can look at me that way. Someone who understands and shares my passion and my mission. Someone who will campaign to change the world alongside me. And his children are so beautiful. I only hope I can raise a child that well someday, with a sparkle in her eye and compassion in her heart.

So Steve Irwin, I will always remember you. You helped shape the path that I walk and taught me how to continue it on my own. I loved you, idolized you, and envied you. I hope I can do my part to fill your footprints and continue your work for the animals and environments of the world. Good on ya mate, you'll always be in my heart.

International Talk Like a Pirate Day!

Arr mateys, I fear I may be coming down with the scurvy. My lily liver feels like a land lubber after keel hauling. Arrrg. Flog the bloody germs so I can get back to pillaging and ruling the high seas! Where's that undead monkey? I need to shoot something! And why is all the rum gone? Fine, then fetch me a flagon of chicken noodle soup, savvy?

Yohoho and a bottle of huggles!

Falling?

I will admit it, I have been avoiding posting these past few days because I simulaneously had too much and nothing at all that I wanted to write. And I have been feeling just this side of depressed. Just these past two or three days and it is nothing to worry about I hope. Not all days can have sunshine... Perhaps depressed is an incorrect word. Lonesome? Discontent? Unfulfilled? I'll put a bigger emphasis on lonesome I think. I have been insanely busy with work and schoolwork and I can not spend time trying to find someone to hang out with when I know I have assignments I could be doing... And I miss my mother too, she's out of town and I feel like I am missing a limb. Sometimes I forget how nice it is to have a best friend around all the time. My mind always feels much less burdened when I can spill to her. And I have been having thoughts about past relationships and future ones too and it hurts to think about what I am missing and that I will probably be missing it for quite some time. But that is what I have chosen and I think it is for the best. It just isn't easy when everyone around me is with someone and there are reminders everywhere I turn.

With fall sneaking up behind my back I need to make a real effort to stay motivated and positive. Less sunshine everyday and nothing but more work to do... It is a hard season for me and only leads to an even harder, longer one. Already all I want to do is curl up and sleep. I'll have to keep a close eye on myself to make sure I don't let things slip out of balance.

Breathe deep.
Seek Peace.
Sunshine and Huggles.