Shake it off

Yesterday I felt about ready to snap as more and more little things piled upon my shoulders, suffocating and debilitating me. This week has been hellish. I'm terribly worried about my mother as she is in New Orleans helping with animal rescues and we haven't heard from her at all... I only pray she gets out of there before any part of Rita hits them. On top of that, Dad's little road rage episode Tuesday was enough to give any passenger ulcers. Then I came down with a sinus infection wednesday morning which made studying for my 2 exams almost impossible. The family's financial state has me constantly worried and with gas prices threatening to rise astronomically I can't fathom how we are supposed to survive...

BUT... I'm feeling better today as I have gotten the two exams behind me and feel fairly confident that I did well. *big sigh*

Hopefully this means that my luck is turning and that the other issues clouding my bright skies will resolve themselves too... Though I can't help but shake the feeling that it may get worse before it gets better.

I hope I am wrong.

Huggles!

Who am I?

So I have been rather lonesome lately... Anyone who has talked to me about relationships in the few month knows that... I even found myself lowering my standards in an effort to aquire acceptance and companionship. But I got a smack in the face tonight when I realized that one of my friends that I was talking to online actually thought I wanted to have sex with him when he comes to visit next month. Where have my standards gone that I am flirting so mercilessly to get attention that people think I am a whore?!

And sure I have nothing against sex or anything, I've had my share of careless fun, but it doesn't hold a candle to an intimate relationship. I miss having someone I know completely in my arms. I miss inside jokes and pet names. I miss calling someone everynight at least to wish them sweet dreams. I miss knowing that I am special enough to have someone who wants only me. Alright I'll stop whining and finish explaining.

The other shot of high emotion that I got tonight was seeing my lil sis with her new boy that came over to visit her. He's my age and a totally cool guy. Seems intelligent, attractive, very into music and has great talent singing and on both guitar and keyboard, only down is that he plays online games (bleh). Well, not to say that I'm interested, because obviously I would never hurt Kelsey like that, but the fact is I should be meeting cool guys who will sing with me and go out for Chinese with me and instead all I ever do is study and work and be pathetic the rest of the time because I am apparently incapable of attracting anyone who is interested in even slightly more than just sex from me...

Sigh...

Ok I vented...

Sorry...

*Huggles*

Cacophony

Wonderful idea University of Akron! Of course the throbbing, pounding rythym of a drum circle would form the perfect foreshadow of the migraines they would soon cause, making this a perfect activity to place in the Student Union around lunchtime where you know a large amount of students are trying to relax and study. In fact, perhaps the throbbing sound will trigger memory links to the throbbing headaches my chemistry homework gives me already thereby making me want to study of course! Who brainchild was this and where can I stab him? Perhaps they are trying to push tylenol sales in the campus store...

I enjoy being bitter about my education.