Woohoo!!! What a wonderful day! The sun is shining!!! And I got the lead in my theatre class play! And I think I did all right on my calculus test and got an A+ on my history test. And my voice teacher is actually pleased with my singing for once! And I'm in a really kickarse group fro Showtime! And I'm going to dinner and a play with my bestest best friend tonight! And I get to see the most wonderful guy in the world tomorrow night, (hopefully! I love him so much!). And my cat's surgery went fine and he'll be home tomorrow! Woohoo! And I'm wearing my gorgeous angel sleeve shirt that my other best friend Jess gave me! I just love life today! I just want to shout from the rooftops and exult in the joy and glory of life! I wish everyone could always be this happy!

Major mega Huggles and Sunshine!!!!

Ok so scratch that crappy blog from earlier off the record. That's so not me. I really am pretty lucky. My life isn't nearly as bad as it seems sometimes. Sure, it's not a walk in the park, and there are a lot of things that could make it better and easier, but I have a lot. I have great friends, a family who tries their darndest, a wonderful boyfriend who I love very much, a great job, a decent school that though while is very challenging at the moment is better preparing me for the rest of life, a great hobby which I will partake in again soon, and a lot of potential to get somewhere in this world. I hate when I get depressed. I mean, why can't everyone be happy and healthy and succeed all the time. But then again, if the bad never happened then we would never appreciate the good. There is nothing in this world so difficult that it ccan't be worked through. There is always a way out, a light at the end of the tunnel so long as we are willing to look for it and to ask for help along the way.

Well I'm off to do my homework and memorize my songs for solo auditions...
Huggles and hope for sunshine soon!

Well since this site ate my last very well thought out entry, I'll just post that I'm tired, and bored, and depressed. I have too much to do that I have no motivation to do... I really want to go fight but I stayed home from school so I can't... Even playing magic cards would be fun right now but no... And I can't see Josh... And my trip to Germany is definitely cancelled. *sniffle sniffle* I'm just feeling very down right now and I wish it would warm up and the sun would shine. I need a hug... sigh.

Sooooo Tired. I really just want to go to bed but I have stupid homework to do. And I can't seem to make myself concentrate on it. Sigh. At least it's early release tomorrow. I don't know quite why I'm so worn out but if it doesn't stop soon I'm gonna have to do something about it... like collapse at school or something.

And both my favorite and best loved boys are sick. Josh still isn't feeling well and may even get fired for missing work today. Totally unfair... Grr they need to be nicer to my baby! And my Kitty Tiger is at the vets right now and will be going into surgery tomorrow. He has a problem called plasmacell pododermatitis. At least we think, it's really hard ro diagnose and he doesn't quite fit the profile. His paws swell and ulcerate and this time his right front paw split right open and the whole fleshy inside just swelled up and it sticking out. So Dr. Price, who is also my boss by the way, will be removing part of it tomorrow and sending it out for pathology. And it's tought because the pad area of the paw takes a long time to heal. But my poor kitty is so stressed about me leaving him there alone and I won't get to see him again until Friday... I hope he'll be ok. Sniffle sniffle *tear* Hopefully both my babys will be better soon so I can spend time with them. *sending healing thoughts and love out to both of them*

I'm feeling a little down too... Bored and tired and don't have anything worth doing for awhile. Well hopefully things will start looking up.
Sigh and huggles.

Sigh, my poor baby is sick. I feel really bad that I can't help him. I have a sudden urge to cook him chicken noodle soup and tuck him in bed... Lol. And I had such plans for a surprise for him for wednesday night. Oh well, I'll just have to postpone them. And I won't divulge whaat they are here because he reads this sometimes.

Well, I find out officially tomorrow whether I'm going to Germany or not... Frau Lyon called my Mom at work today to talk to her about it. So many pros and cons about the situation... I just wish I had a definite answer about so I could finalize my plans.

And school today actually wasn't that bad. It went by rather fast... until ninth period. Calculus is a killer and I about cried when I found out I got a C on my test. I'm so sick of working my butt off and still not doing well. Grr... Only 9 weeks of it left, I think I can make it.

Sigh... well nothing else much to say... I love Josh and I really hope he feels better soon.

Huggles

Icky! I have to go back to school tomorrow! blech! sigh oh well... The sooner we're back the sooner I can get the last 40 some days of school over with! Just 9 weeks left! And then either Germany trip or Ragnarok! We find out tomorrow for sure if the trip is cancelled or not... Honestly I kinda hope it is because it is just a lot of stress and a lot of money and I can always go when I know it's safer after my senior year. Plus this summer sounds like a lot of fun without it. But it'll still rock if we do go.

I really wish spring break wasn't over... It was a great week. I got to see Josh so much! And I just spent Saturday night and most of Sunday at Tarquinn's apartment with everyone! It was a blast. He just turned 21 and we helped him celebrate lol. And then... I got to fall asleep in Josh's arms. He is so wonderful. I love him more and more everyday. And I think I make him happy too, hehe I sure made him happy last night... =) He is so wonderful because he really does act like he relishes every moment with me. When he holds me I feel like he never wants to let go... and I never want him to. His eyes always feel like I could just sink into them. And his kisses mean more each time... they are so full of love and tenderness and passion. And when he says he loves me... my heart just wants to leap out of my chest and into his just so we can be closer to each other. Happy, contented sigh. I just really want to make him happy, more than I've ever wanted to make anyone happy. He means so much to me.

Well, I'm off to dream of my love.
Huggles