Beaming!

What an amazingly beautiful day! Thank heavens for sunshine. The day was made even better by lunch with Emmy which is always magnificent.

Oh, no news on the driving front due to over sleepage on the part of my mother and I this morning. Oops... Rescheduled for next Tuesday afternoon.

So spring, keep it coming! I heard mentions of the "s" word for this weekend but I refuse to acknowledge them because I fully expect the weather to be gorgeous for the spring opener Saturday since I won't get to be at practice tomorrow (*pout*)...

Mmmmm off to study in the last rays of gold this evening.
Huggles!

Frustrated

Remember that mood I described yesterday? Yea, it only got worse today... And the I went to fight. Never fight when you are in that sort of mood. Especially when you are new to the sport. And have armor that doesn't fit right. And are already feeling tired and sick. I am so frustrated with how easily I got tired and how flustered I got, especially when I was fighting Dayen. I should be tougher than that. I should be able to relax and just enjoy and learn. I'm sick of being so irritable. And I'm sick of Mom and Caitlin commenting on how irritable I am, and asking me what's wrong... I don't know! I guess I'm simply stressed. Finances suck right now with Mom not working. I'm not getting the grades in school that I want to be getting. I'm gaining weight. I don't know what excact situation my job at the zoo is in. I haven't been sleeping well. I'm lonely. Have I whined enough yet? I can't fix these things right now! So how do I fix this mood I'm in? How do I relax?

Speaking of stress... Tomorrow at 8:15 I'm taking my drivers test... Wish me luck. I'll do fine on the driving portion I'm sure. I have about a 70% chance of passing manueverability. As I said, wish me luck... Having my liscence would really take a weight off my back.

Sigh, well hugzzzzzzzz...

Discord

Do you ever feel like every noise, every sound, every word is just another nail grating on the chalkboard? I can't stand people today. Even music is annoying me, I can't listen to one song for very long before it starts to annoy me. I can't concentrate... It's like my mind is halfway between frequencies and all else is static and discord... How do I realign myself?