Sigh, I haven't quite decided if I'm in a good mood or a bad mood. Physically, I feel pretty out of it, rather dizzy and almost nauseous. Not a great sign but probably nothing that sleep can't handle. And mentally, I'm slightly frustrated because I just spent the last few hours building swords that I can't quite finish because Walmart sold me defunct duct tape. *pout*

But I'm very much looking forward to fighting tomorrow and seeing all my friends. I'm excited to hang out with Awen, I miss her insanely!

And my feast garb looks awesome!
Yay, just thinking about it makes me feel better.

Well I'm off to bed to rise early and demand new duct tape from the Mart of Wal so I can finish my swords.

Huggles!

What a wonderful practice! Great fighting, great friends, no drama! And it felt really great when I looked at Josh and didn't feel like crying. All wounds heal with time. My body is pulsing with a proud contented sense of accomplishment and I think I improved my fighting skills somewhat, though I'm still so damn slow... Well that's one of my resolutions for the new year, get into the best shape I've ever been in!

Well I'm off to soak in a loverly hot bubble bath and see if I can get my muscles to stop singing so I can go to bed. I work 12 hours tomorrow at the vets. Woohoo... I'm just so tired of Dr.Price's attitude lately and I was severly offended when she gave me less of a Christmas bonus then everyone else. She's biting off her nose to spite her face though because that place is going to fall apart when she loses me and my Mom. Sigh, I hate feeling unappreciated.

Well back onto a happy topic, I love life!
Huggles!

Stealy, sneaky, theif of blogging ideas... Thanks Em who stole it from Kevan.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Shot a rifle and did surprisingly well! Had my heart broken, followed by my first ever rebound relationship. Speech Competition! Job at the zoo. Built my first foam weapon.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more in 2005?
Didn't lose weight. However, I did do well in college.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
I wasn't that close to them when they did give birth but I certainly enjoyed playing with the babies!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My Dad's band leader, which was a bit of a shock. Though I wouldn't consider him close to me.

5. What countries did you visit?
Sadly, none.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? .
My drivers liscence, a car

7. What date(s) from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
November 3rd. *pout*

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Learning to be happy without a significant other.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting my liscence yet.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing too serious... Though being sick the whole week of Ragnarock sucked!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Digital camera!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Julie and Dwight for pulling their act together for their baby girl.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
George W, and possibly Mark at times.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Family bills and Christmas presents.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The environment, animals, and saving both.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Come what May.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Wiser? Beyond my years
Healthier? Asthma is getting better
Richer? Sadly no

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Just plain hung out with my friends and breathed.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Obsess over stupid relationships

20. spending Christmas?
Had a wonderful Xmas with the family as always

21. How many one-night stands?
None

22. What was your favorite TV program?
CSI

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time of the year last year?
I don't hate anyone really, but several people have hurt me quite a bit since last year.

24. What was the best book you read?
Poisonwood Bible, thanks Em!

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Wicked

26. What did you want and get?
Job at the zoo. Digital Camera. Awesome friends and wonderful memories.

27. What did you want and not get?
Liscence, car, laptop

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Didn't really see anything great.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18, went to school, went to work, went out to dinner with Josh.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Comfortable

31. What kept you sane?
Writing. Sleeping. Staying busy.

32. Who did you miss?
I miss Emily right now.

33. Who did something for you that you will never forget?
Well seeing as nothing is coming to mind... no one.

34. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Just be happy being yourself. You don't need someone to make your life shine brighter.

35. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Oh blah di Oh blah da Life goes on.
And... You have to admit it's getting better.

Well, I was just about to write about how miffed I was because I haven't been able to find my digital camera since Christmas when I opened the drawer under my computer and Voila, there it was! This day keeps getting better and better. I've accomplished quite a bit today. I cleaned and did a lot of laundry. I hung out and had lunch with the devine Miss Em. And I convinced my Mother to go to Akron Zoo and apply for a keeper position. While she was there she got to talking with some of her old friends who still work there and they are totally excited that she is reapplying. It apparently looks pretty good that she'll get a position! I am so elated because my Mom has missed keeping so much and I know this will make her incredibly happy.

On a related note, I need to get my act together and put in my application for the animal care internship at Cleveland. I finally finished my resume and cover letter and I'm reasonably happy with them but I'm just so terrified that I'll be rejected. But I guess I can't get the job if I don't apply. So tomorrow at work I'm just going to have to hunt down Ken Pekaric and let him know he needs to give me the job ;) Wish me luck.

Huggles!

Mmmm... slept in two days in a row. I do so love sleep. =) Well off to hang out with my long lost Emily. Yay!

Huggles

What a wonderful day. It was so warm! The air simply caressed my skin and filled my heart with joy. It even smelled like spring and the birds were singing and the breeze was playing in my hair. So maybe I got my wish and it has gone straight back to spring right? =) That would be so lovely. Best winter ever!

By the way, Em, I'm sorry I totally forgot about our plans for New Years Day! It was so very inconsiderate of me... I kinda got caught up in some drama and was a little distracted. Let me know how I can make it up to you ok? I miss you!

Yay! I get the next two days off! Completely off! From BOTH jobs! I'm in shock. I simply don't know what to do with myself. =)

~Huggles of ecstacy~

It certainly has been an interesting start to the new year. It promises to continue that way as well. I am very glad I decided to go to the New Year's Party. I really had a blast! It was nice just hanging out with my friends, I definitely don't get to do that often enough. I reinforced some old friendships, built some strong new relationships, and sadly had an old on go up in flames. But life moves on and the new year beckons.

My resolutions for the year include getting my liscence so I can be slightly more independent, getting the animal care internship, getting into better shape, getting back into better practice with my swordfighting, making time to visit friends more often so I don't seem to fall off the face of the earth, and simply in general trying to be more relaxed about most aspects of my life. Things simply go better when I relax and go with the flow. Not everything has to become a life altering moment, not everything has to be absolutely perfect. Life is beautiful and I want to just breath it all in without worrying about the intricacies of every second. Such as simply kissing a beautiful girl when she offers rather than declining because someone might think it is undignified. It's the little moments in life that really make it worthwhile.

Thank you to everyone who helped to make this past year so wonderful. I look forward to growing and learning more in the coming 2005 amongst you my friends and family.

Huggles!
~the cheap lesbian whore... lol, he got it all wrong! bisexual is much more fitting. =)