There are few better feelings in this world then simply falling asleep in the arms of the one you love. I feel so safe when I'm in Josh's arms. It's just one of those moments in life where you feel that for once, life is perfect. That you know, like maybe this one moment makes it all worth it, because if there is something in life this wonderful it must balance out all the not so great stuff. Josh helps balance life for me.

*Happy, warm, and contented huggles*

Do I expect too much from life? Because I am constantly disappointed. I really just feel like I'm drowning in a pool of tears at the moment...

So it's like 4 am and her I am just woke up to type my language arts essay that I fell asleep and didnt get done yesterday... Bah! Well, it's done now, thank goodness. It really, really irks me when I do dumb things like that. I feel like such a failure.

Fighting yesterday was awesome again! I think I pulled a muscle in my hip and accidentally punched Kurt in the head earning me a slightly bruised pinky, but I so love fighting! woohoo!

And I got to see Josh, yay, and I get to see him again tonight, double YAY!!!!! He is so great. He held me in his arms and kissed me last night and I just felt like the most glorious person in the world. Like I was perfect and nothing bad could ever happen to me. I love him so much.

Well off to get ready for the last day of school this week. Yay!!! (yay to having Friday off, not yay to school today, major boo to school today).
Huggles

Curse you foul bacteria! Be gone from the pure shrine that is my body! Breathing be labored no more! Free my voice to sound clear and joyous over the land! lol I'm so sick of being sick. Cough.

I have a humongous chemistry test tomorrow as well as a notebook with like 100 questions of which I've done like none.... Hehe lazy procratinator that I am. Well off to torture myself with knowledge.

I get to see Josh tomorrow! Yay!!!

Huggles

Lonliness creeping in on the edges of my senses. It's strange how you can feel so lonely when you are surrounded by people. Well... I really wish I could have a hug. I miss Josh...

Ok, so today I played little susie housemaker. I cleaned and put laundry away and even cleaned my room! OMG ::shock:: Yea and I'm thinking, you know life isn't too bad... I really wouldn't mind a life where I have a job and then do housework on evenings and weekends and a hobby on the side. Like Dagorhir, lol picture still fighting when I'm like 30. Lol. And I really can't wait to have a family. A wonderful husband, and children... It would be so wonderful.

And then I remembered I had 6 hours of homework left to do. Blarg!!! If I didn't have school my life would kick butt, or even just nix the hmwk and I'd be cool. It's so frustrating because it's all just stupid busy work... I work my butt off for school and it just seems like it's getting me nowhere. Like the harder I work, the less they reward me. Sigh oh well... Only like 38 school days lefty this year and then just my senior year left and hopefully that should be a lighter load. And I really think I'll enjoy my Post secondary college classes.

And I actually went and fought yesterday! I had a blast. I felt so focused! It was great and I think i actually kicked some arse... maybe a little. I think leaving the game helped me to realize that it was just that, a game. And as Josh said, I think I just finally got my heart back into it. It's more fun if you give your all and don't worry. So that's what I'm doing, I mean the great thing about the game is sure you'll die... but you'll be alive again in a few minutes to do it all over again! Btw: My boyfriend totally kicks butt! I mean it's glorious to watch him fight. He's so wonderful.

The only bad part about me ahving fought yesterday is that I majorly over exerted myself... I couldn't stop shaking at the Magic draft afterwards... I think it's because I'm getting sick again too. But my muscles are soooo sore today. It hurts whenever I move anything. But you know what, it's great becasue I know I used everything I had!

Yea! Well off to do silly history slave labor...
Huggles!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some people are so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blarg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to kill things now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh god, I hope he doesnt do anything stupid now... Shit.

:: Crisis later resolved Yay!! ::